Symbolic Life

For some reason I am really of being in this place,

being in this position.

Day by day I get more and more things .

First, I would like to say to all readers.

I had been very busy the past weekend,


being part of grand events,

spending time with my far from

and of course using every second I had to complete my projects.



Friday night was Talent Search 2009.

It was a success and I did enjoyed my throughout.

Saturday night was a Farewell Dinner for the CSS seniors.

A night filled with I can say.

Both nights, I arrived in my room almost 2AM.

Barely able to open my , I hit the straight.

Sunday morning was Talent Search 2009 postmortem.



The rest of the day I had to complete my Moral project.



At night it was Rotaract Avenue meeting.

After the meeting, wrapped for Rotaract Installation Night

till almost 12AM.

Then I got back to Differential Equations.

Though so much preparations, I still the interview.

Not because I could not answer the questions ,

but because I got myself and told the wrong concept.

After that was a quiz, managed to finish but am not fully confident.



At the end of the day,



I still need to meet my Academic Writing

lecturer for consultant on a

Had co-curriculum drama practice at .


My energy is all drained out.

I am not only ,

I am disappointed and with myself.

After the interview,

I was practically the whole day.

I wanted a so that I can

something as hard as I want.

I used to ask my brother to hold a for me to .

I hope at least he is here.

I do walls as well, of course not till my hand bleed.

I am not

and are just my ways to release .

Different people have different ways.

Some play , some sleep, some go for,
some , some play ,

some watch , some read ,



some go for and etc.

In less than a month I will be back

I have lost my interest in aiming-high and working hard.

The world is getting so that the

efforts do not seemed to worth it.



I used to be perfectionist, still a little perhaps.

But when others being ,

no one will see the efforts, no one will see the sacrifice.



I need to be out of this place.

I need to and go for class, I guess.

These are places I can channel

everything out of me and feel