*the result of the experiment on me - on the right*
*it started like this....* (for display only)
*and ended up like this...* (for display only)
*i guessed he cycled in the rain..all the cars passed him..
*need a rest..agrhhh! headache!!* (for display only)
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If only one of my teddy bear can
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Good night & sweet dreams..23.08.2008
Saturday
Sunday / Thunderstorm
Nothing much happened today. I woke up late, around 1pm. Then, I bath and when online. Replied some friendster comments and edited my account. After that looked up for some guitar chords. I asked my dear to buy me breakfast and lunch since he will be going to the convo fair. He bought me Dunkin Donuts, yesterdays yogurt drink and Ferrero Roche that we bought at the mall.My friend who lost his wallet asked me to ask my friends from Ipoh where is the nearest police station since he want to lodge a report. When I was browsing through the net around 4pm, the line when from “very good” to “fair” and it disconnected all of a sudden. So there goes the chord looking, all I can do is to bookmark the page first then find them again later. After the line when off, I started to concentrate on my drama script writing. I am supposed to discuss with 2 other girls but it seemed so difficult for us to meet up. Moreover, who want to have long meeting to write drama scripts when there is convo fair? So I ended up writing the script alone. It was not that bad. With full concentration, plus some eating, drinking and toilet break, I managed to finished everything, including printing 3 sets around 7.30pm. About dinner, my roommate when out to convo fair so I practically asked her to buy me some food. After finishing my drama script, I continue on doing my Chemistry flow chart. Chemistry lab will be on Tuesday but I am doing it earlier because Physics quiz will be on Tuesday too. Since I have the time, mind as well I finish it up and concentrate on Physics later on. After I finished the flow chart, decided to do Engineering Mathematics assignment. But when I looked at the question, I got so confused. So I ended up looking for Physics reference book. Then again, I felt so lazy. I closed my book then my roommate came back with my special “char kueh tiaw” for my dinner. It tasted good, very much different from what I had in Kuching. At the same time, I wanted to try whether the internet connection is working. I tried to sign in then “boom”! I entered the main page. -.-“ means I am connected. So, neglecting my Physics, I started replying comments and looking up for chords again. And, after this, I will be practicing on my guitar. Then maybe, I said maybe study Physics. My dear when to sleep over at the church since the praise and worship group will be practicing for tomorrow’s Sunday service. He told me something shocking – the bassist of Planet Shakers lied that he had cancer. (Click here to read an article about it) My dear told me he was sad due to the action of the bassist because Planet Shakers is like a role model to many teenagers, especially the believers. But I told him – if God can forgive his children who create sins everyday, why can’t we forgive one person that creates sin. If we are to be sad because of the sin of one person, then God must be crying everyday because his children creates sins everyday.
“ Blessed is he whose transgression is forgiven, whose sin is recovered Blessed is the man unto whom the Lord imputeth not iniquity, and in whose spirit there is no guile. When I kept silence, my bones waxed old through my roaring all the day long. For day and night thy hand was heavy upon me: my moisture is turned into the drought of summer. Selah. I acknowledge my sin unto thee, and mine iniquity have I not hid. I said, I will confess my transgressions unto the Lord ; and thou forgavest the inquity of my sin. Selah.”
Psalm 32 : 1-6
Friday
Cloudy / Rainy
Today I woke up and feeling extraordinarily sleeping. I went to the bathroom half awake and half asleep with my eyes only partially opened. Lecture started at 8am today and ended at 12pm, was not exactly lecture..had CAL lab from 8-10am and engineering mathematics tutorial from 10-12pm. As we had planned earlier on, we went to Ipoh town. I actually wanted to go to Ipoh Parade but since most of them want to go to Jaya Jusco, I just followed..I had nothing in mind actually, just wanted to take a walk around after a hectic week in the university. I walked to the sports complex (where they waited for me), and it rained suddenly. I was lucky enough that I got my umbrella ready this time. It was not that long until a bus came. 
As the saying goes, “don’t judge a book by it’s cover”. I was shocked when I entered the bus. It looked fine on the outside but was really terrible inside. However, I was still able to sleep until the very end of our journey even though the seat was too leaning towards behind and unadjustable. The driver of the bus drove the bus so fast that I was in fear most of the time. Lastly, we stopped at a petrol station. Which means, we have to walk to another bus station to take another bus to Jaya Jusco. This time the bus was much more better. Air-conditioned and cleaner, just that the seats were uncomfortable, they were too hard, not custioned. When we reach Jusco, we split up and shop for our own need.
I bought a few things for myself and my room. At least now I will feel more comfortable staying in my room.
New laundry bag for my unhangered clothes
New shoes rack
New Rug“[Family Relationships] Children, obey your parents in the Lord, for this is right. Honour your father and mother (which is the first commandment with a promise). So that may be well with you, and that you may live long on the earth.”
(Ephesians 6:1-3)
After care group meeting, I had an argument with my dear. I asked him whether he wanted to go for Convo Fair, and he said he was playing game. Then, I just kept quiet..he knew I was upset. He tried to make thing up by asking me to keep his lap top. I do not want to do that, I want him to realise his mistake himself and repaint himself. Recently, he had been slightly addicted to games. My friend’s wallet either dropped or taken by people when we were at the mall. So I just prayed that he will be able to find it or solve the problem soon.
Conclusion of today’s care group sharing :
1. Do not neglect earthly parents
2. “For God hath not given us the spirit of fear ; but of power, and of love, and of a sound mind” (2Timothy 1:7)
3. Prioritize God, seek His kingdom and guidance
Thursday
Rain
*This is how I hang my clothes when there is not
enough space at the balcony. They tried faster by fan
though.*
Praise God, my dear was good enough to buy an umbrella at the Uni-cherish (mini mart) and lent it to me. He too, waited for me to take my assignment from my hostel at the cafeteria. I rushed back under the rain with my shoes all soaked up, but I did not bothered. All I knew was to hand in my assignment as soon as possible. I rushed back to the cafeteria and saw him there with his friends, still patiently waiting for me. I asked him about a question from the assignment which I had not done yet, but he gave me no answer, neither did his friends could. This time, I brought along my own umbrella. We walked fast to block 23 hoping that we were in time to hand in my assignment. Luck enough, we did. When I entered her office, she was on the phone and she smiled to me. I wondered whether that smile means she will deduct my marks for handling in my assignment hours before the due time because I was supposed to hand it in during the lecture in the morning and by that time it was almost 4pm. Just prayed that she will be considerate. After handling in my assignment, I decided to go to the IRC, since the debate meeting will only end at 5pm. My dear walked me to the entrance and he went back to his hostel. In the IRC, I went soaring till the highest level looking for my group members. I ended up browsing the net about some physics I quiz from a well-known university (but found out the syllabus is different). Then I received an instant message (sms) saying that they all went back already just moments before I arrived at the IRC. So i picked up my umbrella and started my journey back to my hostel. I walked in the rain alone under my purple umbrella. As i looked around, I saw cleaners getting ready to get back home. Some seemed to be at my age or just slightly older, I felt lucky that I am given the chance to be here. This place may not be perfect, but it maybe a place where many people wished to be in. The situation or position that I am in now may not be easy, but it is where many people dream of. Walking alone in the rain was not lonely after all, at least I can still hear the sound of the rain dripping on the roof tops, the sound made by the tyres of the cars when they ran into puddles of water, I can still see people running in the rain and cyclist cycling as fast as they can to avoid getting to wet in the rain. It proved that I am still alive today. As I walked up the stairs to my hostel, I thought of my life. Thought how lucky I am to have a wonderful family, friends and my dear beside me. Thought how I am going to learn new things in life and get closer to God. Without realizing, I reached my room. I never felt this feeling before, it was as if my room was at the first floor, but it was at the third floor. For the first time, I was not tired climbing up the stairs. I realized, as I thought about my life, it is indeed very short. Just like how the distance to my room is shorten when I thought about life. Or maybe there were so many events, whether good or bad that happened in my life...I reached my room even though I had not finished thinking about my life. I had a wonderful guy too in my life, even though he gets childish and annoying at times, he is always there for me. Tonight, he said he will marry me one day. I do not know how true can that be but I know he is sincere and our love is pure. I am always amazed how he can still say he want to marry me because I was the one who always make him cry, and not him making me cry.
*My new bought guitar..super beginner, “Unto thee, O Lord, do I lift up my soul. O my God, I trust in thee : let me not be ashamed, let not mine enemies triump over me. Yea, let none that wait on thee be ashamed : let them be ashamed which transgress without cause. Show me thy ways, O Lord, thy tender mercies and thy lovingkindnesses ; for they have been ever old. Remember not the sins for my youth, nor my transgressions : according to thy mercy remember thou me for thy goodness’ sake, O Lord.”
(Psalm 25 : 1-7)
