I know him, but I don't know him

we broke up, it was my choice.
he said he can't accept it, i was his everything.
he said he loved me the most, like what he did with his ex.
before the break up, we were rocky.
i dislike his attitude, he was very ego and self conscious.
he said he would change for me.
i did not believe him, i dislike his attitude too much.
that's when we broke up, i was happy with it.
after the break, i was happier than i was before.
he remained as a close friend.

i met people, guys who wanting to date me.
but i was not ready, my mindset had changed.
i was once a player, now no longer.
i remembered a friend who told me :
true love need not to be find, it will come itself when the time is right.
maybe he did not understand it, he dated not one but more girls.
perhaps before, during or after our break up.
after i found out, i was feeling lucky and happy we actually broke up.
he knew that i found out he is dating girls.
so he wrote me something, which i knew it was not true from his heart.

he said he is sorry because he is having not one, but two or more girlfriends.
he said he had not changed, he never did.
he said he never really love those girls,
he just wanted to be occupied.
he said he only love one girl, who i am sure she's not me.
most probably his ex, who i think got back to him after we broke up.
and lastly, he said he still loves me,
which i strongly believe is a lie.

he never knew what his ex told me,
she said she never really loved him.
he was blinded, thinking he was the most powerful.
thinking that he is so cool that girls swarm around him,
and getting girls one after another.
i knew how it feels, getting guys one after another.
but i am no longer that girl.
i am happy being single and having guys loving me as brothers and friends.
some tried to woo me, but God will lead the way.
i am now believing true love will come when the time is right.
and God will lead the way and give signs if the chosen one is mine.

he is no longer the person i knew before.
or i can say, i never even really know who he is.
how can he still say he love me,
when he is currently having two girlfriends or more?
to me, he is now barely a friend.
how can i ever love him again when i never even know him.
and i am trying hard to respect him.

dude, you know who you are.
i am very sure you read my blog.
having girlfriends isn't everything.
you said you got jealous seeing my messages coming non stop.
and you said you dated more than one girl to make yourself occupied.
you said you were lonely after we broke up.
what is actually in your mind?
you date girls just to stop your loneliness?
or just to have girls messages filled up in your inbox?

honestly, i am feeling very lucky.
lucky that i am no longer yours.
but it's your life, you decide.

i wonder if there is someone who is as happy as i am when they broke up.