My limit

Should I stop blogging?
I suddenly feel that I am not significant to anyone.
That my existence was never felt,
nor will my future disappearance.
My efforts were never known.
I had been patient for so long,
perhaps it is time for revenge.
What is the use being so nice in today's world?
You will never be appreciated.
I learned my lesson, so it is payback time.

For those who were never punctual,
never expect me to be punctual anymore.
Since long long time ago I was taught by my Dad,
to be at least 15 minutes earlier.
Now even if I am late 1 minute,
you will be late for 30 minutes.
Damn you!!
And when the meeting haven't finish,
and I need to leave for another,
you will stare at me.
Fucker!!
It's not my fault that the meeting don't end on time,
as if I have all my time for you.

And, for those who think they can push everything to me,
just because they are slightly busier than me.
Wtf is wrong with you, do your part and do it on time!!
what's all with the delay and making things so difficult.
To those who are unable to accept others ideas,
but never give ideas and can't stop being sarcastic,
don't make a fool out of yourselves.

For some reason,
I got so angry till I cried.
I always cry when I am really really angry.
Why on Earth are people so selfish and inconsiderate.
Now they all give me no reason to be considerate,
no reason to be punctual, no reason to be forgiving.
Now I feel that wouldn't it be great for me to treat them the same?
This is not the first time I felt this way.
Only this time I blogged it out to let you think.
You stupid idiots!!
Well, if you read my blog.

I was right.
When people say threat others good
and others will treat you the same.
Be good so that the luck and wealth or
whatever good shits will be with you.
But it is no longer the same in the world today.
Only the foolish try to be good,
and get bullied and tortured.
Today, you must be bad to have the good shits with you.
It doesn't matter what God think.
Just like how corruption is.
You got everything you want, that's it.
Nobody cares the dirty tricks you did.

I'm tired of this place, this world.
I wish to sleep and never get up to face it anymore.
Though there are still so much joys and smiles around,
they are not enough to cover all the sadness and tears.
Why is a smile worth a thousand meaning,
and a tear, worthless?

Here I am eating a bowl of empty noodles,
feeling so sick of everything.
Without anyone who bother whether I exist.
Life goes on even without me.
Is this how people who suicide think?
I think I better shut up from now.
Make a change back to my old self.
Where I got scolded for being too quiet.
I love being quiet, never bothered I was scolded.
It was the world which makes me voice out,
when I got tired of how people ain't making things better.
But now I no longer care what the world is doing.
People are so selfish they never consider what others say.
You do yours, I do mine.
I'm tired. I've reach my limit.