where I've reach so far

For once I sort of learnt the true meaning of life, when you learn to be responsible and independent and all those moral values you memorized for SPM you thought you don't need it but suddenly they pop out in your life.

I will soon end my semester holiday of 2 months. This is my longest holiday ever oh wait after SPM was the longest ever wtf but it felt as if it is the shortest.

Since my holiday started 2 months ago, I have been taking Latin and Ballroom dance lesson (marked here). Dancing had always been my interest.

I performed in some Chinese & Bidayuh traditional dance oh I'm so proud I can dance both dances from both sides of my parents wtf. I tried break dancing but due to lack of strength and time constrain I quit training. I have never tried hip hop so maybe next time when there is chance but now I freakin love Latin.

So I followed the class for 2 months, 3 days a week, 4-5 hours a week. It is the only sport I am good at wtf. Sadly very very very very I don't get to dance freely and there is no such accommodation something like a floor for yoga provided. I want to take dance classes in Ipoh but then I got no transport who from UTP got car and go Ipoh every weeked can tumpangkan inform me ya cause I'm desperate wtf

During these 2 months also Mum got sick and Dad had cataract operation and Bro worked part time but he stupid cause I still need to send him wtf. So I need to bring my parents for treatment, checkups and take care of them at home. That is when I really feel I got so many responsibility.

My driving skills also increased drastically. I drive at least 30 minutes a day, everyday. Drove whole Kuching, until my village at Sematan.

My sleeping hours also distorted, early of my holidays I sleep from 3am to 4pm. Sometimes wake up halfway at 8am to send my annoying brother to work, I cannot sleep earlier than 12am cause I need to pick my brother. At the end after my Dad had cataract operation, I need to send my Dad for check up and pick my brother. So I wake up at 6am and sleep at 1am though so tired I never gave up dancing wtf.

I get to be make up artist (marked here) and a model for my cousin's make up exam. Though both without pay, I enjoyed doing something of my interest. I am not a make up freak, sometimes I just buy them as collection but seldom use them how am I going to carry back my make up bag to uni.

I am online very often my cousin's favourite line when he sees me online "owh...online ajak2 keja kau", but I do take my time to wash the clothes and cook. It is true people say that when you do something you like, time flies. I will be going back to UTP this Friday, dental appointment this Saturday. Lecture gonna start this Monday. how much more hectic can it be

Luckily my Aunt is coming from Sarikei today. I will be less worried leaving home. When I am doing all the work at home, it makes me worried. What happens when I get back to Uni? My bro is going to quit his job cause nobody will be sending him after I am off to Uni plus he haven't got his license. My Dad took 1 week sick leave, Mum drops by at home whenever she has free period from school.

Though all that, parents still being supportive of youngest bro involving in break dancing even when his class ends an hour or 2 before his tuition class starts. He has tuition for 4 days a week will be 5 days soon after my Mum found one for Biology.

I am feeling the burden and responsibility increasing, for myself and my family. I am now entering Year 1 semester 2. More credit hours and events this semester. Need to work harder. I have my faith in Him. :D