Since this is my Final Year Final Semester for my Degree, I figured I would blog a little more frequently now that I am free of events and organizations, except the piling lab works and reports. In case one day I would be too busy to even remember I have a blog. Just recently I felt old, of course being the most senior for Undergraduate studies maybe among the factor but I just figured what wonderful time I had been through all these (almost) 5 years.
I experienced many things which shows me the values of life. For the life I have lived thus so far, I have no regrets. Given this chance I will try to live an even better life and create more memories after leaving the University. 5 years is not very short, neither it is long. For all the things I've done and learned, I truly surprise myself when I look back.
5 years ago I remembered how much I wanted to leave home, create my own adventure. The furthest I have been on my own was probably my grandparents' 'Kampung' (village). Even during that time I used to beg my parents to let me stay. I am the eldest and the only daughter, probably instead of my 2 younger brothers, people who I can linger well are most probably my female cousins. This adventurous inner me, comes from my Mum :) My Dad who has aerophobia (phobia of flying, probably because he was sent away to Canada alone) would always prefer staying at home. Just recently he got better due to frequent flights he had to take for the sake of his children ^^ Mum like me, has always been the one who wants to explore places even when her health might not permit.
Both my parents came during the registration day. When they finally left, I didn't cry at all. I was not scared, for quite a very long time I was not homesick. I look forward to many adventures ahead. Dad was particularly worried, for first few months of Foundation Studies he called everyday, but he will always let me know how much he trusts me to be independent haha. Being on Scholarship is a blessing, I get to be home every semester, with my flights sponsored. There was once I bought my flight without my parents knowing, asked my cousins to fetch me from the airport and arrived home as a surprise for my parents, it was for Mother's Day. Imagine how surprised my parents were, they thought I was actually my cousin. Mum's expression when she saw me that night, I will never forget :) It was probably during my Second year that I got so sick of this place, this university in the middle of the jungle, looking at the same people, same buildings. I missed home so much, I flew back home during study week, for the whole week I stayed at home and didn't step out. After that, rather than being homesick, most of the time I was only constantly worried about my parents' health. For my parents who always wish the best of me, I am grateful. For this final push, I will try my best ^^
When talking about University, your friends are like your family, especially when you are far from home and the University is isolated :D Throughout all these years, I met many people. Coursemates, Events colleagues and other Affiliations. For having the same roommate for 5 years though we've never met before, are not coursemates, having nothing much in common but stayed in harmony for all these years, I shall consider both of our tolerance levels are quite high (pun not intended) :D For friends I have made throughout this journey, and people who I neglected due to conflicts. Whether or not our paths will cross again in the near future, I hope we all learn from mistakes. For those who I have not remembered for only having a glance, for those who we have been avoiding each other, I hope you live your life well and I have never got any hatred towards anyone. For all the misunderstandings and those moments when I had to take my position in between two sides, I would like to remain neutral. Throughout these 5 years, I made new friends, lost some and learned about people who really care. Even outside the university, due to my other commitment, I've get to meet people from all over the world ^^
Heard about the term CC (Campus Couple)? Learning about the importance of family after I've been away, knowing the value of friendships and learning about the human behavior, of course I also fell into the trap of love. Being in love, being out of love, being in love with the wrong person, destroyed friendships due to love. I am not a perfect person, no one is. But being able to experience all those at this age, I have seen enough heartbreaks. Love is not simple and before you plan to care for someone else, it is best to care for ourselves, for who would love you if you don't love yourself. Perhaps I have came to temporarily forget about this love towards man but use it to appreciate my family and friends more. I still believe that when there is fate, when it comes, it will just be the right moment. These tests, I have learned from them :)
Other stuffs I've experienced throughout these 5 years? Not that I skipped uncountable lectures (which I did), not that I failed any subjects (which I never did), not that I've cheated in quizzes, tests, exams (I guess we all did) but there are just things that not many of us will experience. Interesting things we did at the UTP lake, illegally climbing into the Swimming pool, dropped a subject just before the final exam, flew to Korea when all my coursemates where doing their 10 days Fieldwork, attend to a trail in UTP court as victim, wrote an email to UTP's Rector and the email was forwarded to the Department Heads, handling Malaysia's sole fansite for an idol and many other bittersweet memories, for me to keep & for you (not) to find out :)
Alright back to my assignments, sorry for the abrupt ending :D Might just post up some photos on my next post, this lengthy wordy post surely bores you :)
Cheers to more memories and experiences ahead! ♥