Sunday, November 30, 2008

I'm yours, U're mine

She swear she will remember this day forever.
The day when the sky is filled with the brightest stars,
the day when the sky is filled with extraordinary numbers of stars.
He just made her day perfect.
Maybe he is different, maybe he is special..
But for some reason,
she told him something she never did tell others...
The only thing she wishes for, is to be in his arms forever.
The only thing she wants is for him to never let go.

Sleeping Flu

This whole week,
I had not been sleeping well...
Woke up naturally everyday due to nose blockage,
and non stop sneezing...
Worst is, I woke up when I did not even slept enough.
Today, I slept 4-5 hours only..
But then, I can't breathe cause my nose was blocked.
So I had to wake up, blow my nose & stuffs..
Sorry roomy, I knew I'm disturbing your sleep.
And the sneezing plus nose-blowing parts are lil disgusting..
Why this happens every morning?
This stupid flu...
Weird thing is, it only happens after I sleep.
No matter when I sleep,
morning, afternoon, evening, night..
When ever I wake up,
I will be sneezing and blowing my nose.
But after an hour or 2 of all those sufferings,
the flu will be gone itself...
Weird huh..
It may be called morning flu if it happens only in the morning.
But this, even after afternoon nap...
It's unbearable.
Hopefully it will cure after finals..
Last paper on Monday.
Another weird subject after Moral Studies,
It's Thinking Skills.
Was supposed to teach us the correct way to think,
and make us more creative in problem solving or stuffs like that.
But not sure whether it really worked out for me.
Argh!! Stupiak flu..
Going back to sleep..Zzzz... ><

Saturday, November 29, 2008

Disapointment to the Max.!

Engineering Maths exam was a total disappointment.
I don't really hate that subject so much, I actually love part of it.
But, the exam was terrible.
I entered the super-cold-chilling-freezing-ice-age chancellor hall,
sat at my table numbered 118.
Was feeling okay, prepared myself,
except memorizing the formula.
memorizing is never my expertise.
In short, my memory sucks.
When we were asked to flip through the questions,
I was quite sure I am able to answer quite well,
but as expected, it was an endless nightmare for whole 3 hours.
I seemed to get stuck on every question,
I was unable to make wise decision on which question to choose from,
and left most of the questions half way done.
Even forgotten all the trigonometry formula,
can't believe we are not provided with all the freaking trigonometry formula.
In whole, I left many questions blank,
chosen the difficult questions,
missed out the easy ones,
and screwed up the whole paper.
After I finished the paper.
I was like, did I missed out something?
I knew I missed out answering many questions,
but there was something else.
Then I realized, I forgotten my prayer before exam.
And for goodness sake this is the first time I forgotten to pray for my exam!
How can I actually forgotten, yet this is the worst subject in history.
I mean, till now.
God, help me...

This is where some of us had our Engineering Maths exam.
The super-cold-chilling-freezing-ice-age Chancellor Hall

My Astrological Reading

Lunar Transit

Begin on the 9 January 2009 for a period of 6 months of chance and fortune.

You will be living under the full and beneficial influence of our glorious satellite, the Moon.

A positive evolution and development of greater pleasure and harmony in your love life.
A financial win, most likely linked to a game or to the lottery.
An improvement in your professional lifestyle.
The start of a new and exciting cycle in your life.
An important encounter which is set to bring radical change into your life.

Please la..

I'm totally pissed off and tired of this..
Stop saying that I promised God what-ever-u-r-talking of!!
Damn, this is so disappointing..
I promised God nothing..
I'm not married or anything,
so I dun have to promise God to stick with "you" or who-so-ever forever.
So stop saying I promised God what-so-ever!!
I thought "you" are the one who said you cried bitterly,
and felt bad cause you promised God.
So what does that got something to do with me???
Just because you promised doesn't mean that I promised too!
Can't you just move on and f*ck off with all the other girls you already have??
I mean your wife and your girlfriends.
Guys (especially some who can't seemed to move on well),
stop the sarcasm please...
Nama saja ada wife or girlfriend,
but still go woo other girls, just to get yourself occupied.
This type of guys - Playboy...~swt~
If you are saying me a playgirl, i learned my lesson.
I was, and now no longer.
I already have my one and only.
So why can't you change now?
One more thing, why believe on rumors?
You want the truth, come to me and ask me face to face,
I'll make sure you know what the "truth" really means.
Please la k..
I did not even promise "you" anything,
how can I promise God??
I swear I did not promise God anything!!
Move on guys! Life is a journey...
Why turn back when you can move on??

Okay, enough of guys..
Now girls..
Well, I am a girl,
but i am really pissed off with some girls staying at my dorm.
Don't know which..
Please la,
it is either you are too lazy, too shy,
or your brain grew outside your head.
Did not you know that throwing your fucking pads inside the bathroom
"water-flow-hole"(whatever you call that) will block the flow of the water,
and cause flood in the bathroom??
Come on...
Staying in our dorm are all girls,
it is not like other girl do not have that "p" thingy.
Be more responsible please.

It may be just rumors,
or it maybe a deadly truth.
But I just hate how $ money $ can always do it's job so well.
So, $ money $ can help you get CGP 4 in this modern world huh?
Humans change for the worst.
No wonder it is raining a lot lately, God must be crying..

Thursday, November 27, 2008

Exam Fever

This is like the history being repeated.
I am sick again during exams.
Perhaps I have the sickness called "exam fever".

Those who sat for SPM together with me,
should had known how sick I was during that time.

I remembered,
it was just last year end.
I was terribly knocked down by high fever.
I was in bed for 24 hours, tried to study but stopped by my parents.
I went to exam everyday after taking my medicines,
or at times, after vomiting.
The whole SPM week I was having high fever.
My dad even suggested for me to take sick leave,
and sit for the exam other time.
I spent around half of my exam hours sleeping,
which means i did my papers super fast, then sleep.
I brought packets of tissues to the exam room,
and the only sound you can hear during exam was my cough.

I can't recall which paper was it.
That day was terrible, my fever was killing me.
I was trying not to throw up during the exam,
but after I came out, i throw up at the school's drain.
Everyone looked at me, including some teachers passing by.
Even during the last day of SPM was embarrassing,
I had to wear "cool fever" to the exam, it was Biology paper.
And I remembered how the Pengetua starred at me
as I walked out from the exam room.

After SPM, I had not recovered.
Took me around a week or 2 to recover from my fever, flu & cough.
When the result was about to be announced,
everyone was eager to know mine,
-the girl who actually had high fever the whole week of SPM.
The 1st person who was shocked was my Mum,
of course, she was the one who knew deeply how terribly sick I was.
Praised God for helping me.

And now, the "exam fever" hits me again.
I am having flu & sore throat during my finals for my 1st semester.
Yet, the medicine makes me sleepy,
which causes me to sleep, sleep & sleep.
In other words, no study.
I tried to, but I just can't concentrate.
Others were busy going to study at the IRC,
but i am in my room almost 24 hours, too tired to go anywhere.

Before this post, I had just woke up to my fourth sleep of the day.
My biological clock in now so wild due to the medication,
and my urge to study.

This is what happened to my biological clock yesterday & today :

2pm - 6.30pm : slept (after medication)
6.30pm - 11pm : awake (tried to study but was so tired)
11pm - 2am : slept (after medication)

2am - 4am : study (woke up naturally)
4am - 7am : slept
7am : woke up to take medicine, then slept again
9.30am - 11am : woke up naturally
11am - 2pm : slept again (was sleepy)
2pm - 3pm : study
3pm - 7pm : slept (after medication)

I was feeling so tired.
So sick and in pain.
I thought i was going to sleep forever,
cause when i tried to wake up earlier,
I had no energy at all to pull myself out of bed.

God, I need your help..
Please give me the strength so that I am able to study in a fit body,
so that I can gain knowledge and serve you well.
God, I pray to you for good health so that I am able to sit for my exams,
and try my best in my exams to pass with flying colours.
In Jesus name I pray, Amen.

Wednesday, November 26, 2008


It is now 3.10am..
but i am still wide awake..
slept like...
an hour..
then had some kinda nightmare (which i dun remember)..
woke up, went to the loo..
and now i am eating noodles while everyone is sound asleep..
worst, tomorrow is exam..
i mean physics exam, which is *speechless*...
i am so gonna screw up my finals..
having flu, sore throat and now, insomnia..
this is bad..real bad...

Monday, November 24, 2008

The Reason ^^

He is the reason she smiles even when she is sick

He is the reason she hugs her pillow tightly every night

He is the reason she downloads love avatars

He is the reason she searches for love graphics

He is the reason she loves star glazing more than before

He is the reason she watches love story with all her heart

He is the reason she wakes up smiling everyday

He is the reason she fears nothing but God

He is the reason she wants to be a better person

He is the reason she never gives up living

He is the reason she appreciates every moment of she life

He is the reason her life brightens and turned meaningful

He is the reason she no longer cries for loving someone

He is the reason she thinks love is just unexplainable

He is the reason why she thinks he is special

He is the reason she fell

"Let us not love in words or in tongue but in deeds and in truth."
(1 John 3:18)

Thursday, November 20, 2008

Me vs Piggy

it's studying vs sleeping,
and me vs piggy...
proudly sadly,
the winners always seemed to be sleeping and me.. =.=

today is Thursday,
i mean 5th day of study week.
and I had been so so NOT productive.
it's like, study week is for studying sleeping for me.
my education level is dropping from already-low to negative.

i sleep mostly between 2 to 4am,
then wake up everyday not earlier than 12pm.
worst, i go to bed again after 1 hour of breakfast...

i wake up starring at my notes,
flipping through..
and assuming that i know what m i studying..

people are busy looking up on their course marks,
but i'm like,
"er.. wateva ..not that i can change anything if i know earlier.."
okay, i know that's a bad attitude..
but isn't it the TRUTH?

talking bout that, some phrase lingers in my mind,
told by a lecturer of ours,
"is this what you call yourself university student??"
that is so like..ME...

i am having flu..
took 2 vitamin C tablets and 2 vitamin A tablets,
this is like so overdose..
and i even sneezed some u-noe-wat thingy on my notes!
well, i was trying to concentrate studying..
you know.. XD

but who cares,
next week is exam week..
yea, u heard me..
and im studying sleeping most of my time..

we, as students, need to rest a lot..
don't try to increase the rate of suicide among students..

Peace! >.<

Bored survey

RULE 1: You opened this; you GOTTA take it.
RULE 2: You are NOT ALLOWED to explain ANYTHING
unless someone messages you and asks.

Q: Love someone?
Q: Who is that someone?
Q: Kissed someone on your top friends?
Q: Been arrested?
Q: Been searched?
Q: Been suspended from school?
Q: Sat on a roof top?
Q: Broken a bone?
Q: Have shaved your head?
Q: Played a prank on someone?
Q: Shot a gun?
Q: Donated Blood?

1. You hung out with?
=roomy & frens
2. Last person that you texted?
3. You were in a car with?
=roomy & frens
4. Went to the movies with?
5. Went to the mall with?
=roomy & frens
6. Person you talked on the phone with?
7. Person that called you?
8. You messaged on myspace?
=no myspace
9. You talked to?
10. You miss?
11. You hugged?

1. Eat or drink?
= both
2. Be serious or be funny?
= both
3. Drink whole milk or skimmed milk?
= wh0le milk
4. Die in a fire or die getting shot?
=no to both
5. Go to the bar or to the beach
= beach

1. Sun or moon?
= moon
2. Winter or fall?
= winter
3. Left or right?
= right
4. Black and white or coloured?
= coloured
5 Where do you live?
= malaysia
6 Do you wanna get married?
= yup
7 What is on your mind?
= finals
8 Do you twirl your spaghetti or cut it?
= twirl

1 Kissed someone?
2 Been hugged by someone?
= yup
3 Been poked by someone?
= yup

Tuesday, November 18, 2008

Exam Prayer

O God of Wisdom, I thank you for the knowledge
gained and the learning experiences of this year.

I come to you on this day and ask you to enlighten my
mind and heart.

Let your Holy Spirit be with me as I prepare for
exams, guiding my studies, and giving me insight so
that I can perform to be best of my ability.

Please grant me the strength to handle the pressure of
these final days of the term,
the confidence to feel secure in my knowledge,
and the ability to keep an appropriate perspective
through it all.

Help me to keep in mind what is truly important,
even as I focus my time and energy on these exams in
the immediate future.

Finally, may I sense your peace in knowing that I
applied myself to the challenges of this day.

I ask this through Jesus Christ our Lord.

Monday, November 17, 2008

Perfect Day ♥

It was one of the most memorable day in her life.

She sent a message to him, telling him how much she misses someone.

He replied her, saying he was also missing someone very much.

Then, he asked her whether she wanted to go for a walk.

She agreed without asking much.

She was tired but she will do anything just to meet him.

He was tired too, but she knew he will do anything just to meet her.

They had a walk and sat at their usual spot.

It was a tranquil night, spent their time looking at the moon and stars together.

And enjoying her newly bought yogurt.

They talked about random stuffs, family, friends, school works, exams…

Then, he got closer.

She was dead nervous, her heart was pumping vigorously.

She knew she ♥ him a lot, but she did not know how much he ♥ her.

He started saying weird stuffs,

Like how pretty she is, she smells so nice, her feet are so small…

Suddenly, he popped up the question.

She knew it was difficult for him.

She knew what he was going to ask.

She wanted to ask him to stop or else she is going to faint,

but she was muted.

She wanted to speak but nothing came out.

He told her that he had fallen in ♥ with someone.

She did not dare to look at him, she was damn bloody nervous.

Lastly, he told her he ♥ her.

He held her hands and asked her whether she is willing to accept him.

She just nodded and did not dare look up at all.

She was speechless since she did not expect all this at that moment.

That very moment, she did not want to let go his hand.

And she wanted him to hug her as long as possible.

The moon and stars were shining bright above them,

the night was calm and perfect.

He held her hand and hugged her.

The only thing in her mind was just wanting to be with him forever,

She just want to ♥ him forever.

He had just made her day perfect…

Sunday, November 16, 2008

Tagged by Lolo

Lay out the questions please!

What’s your favorite card game?
-Solitaire counts?

Did you speak to your mother today?
- It was long since we last talked.. :(

Where do you live?
- Permanently in Kuching, Sarawak..temporarily in Tronoh, Perak

How many months until your birthday?
- wow..11 more months..*long*

Where is your sister right now?
- no sista!!

Who was the last person you called?
- Mark..bout drama meeting..

Who’s bothering you right now?
- for now..nobody..

Anything you’re giving up on?
- herm...nothing..

Who was the last person you gave your number to?
- drama member..

When was the last time you cleaned your room?
- juz now, juz swept my room and changed my bed sheet..

Who would you say is your number 1 best friend right now?
- no best frens..i gt lots of frens..equally treated as bests among bests.. :)

How did you wake up this morning?
- naturally, woke up around 1pm due to the hot weather i guess..

What’s the last bone you broke?
- never broke any

How many letters are in your last name?
- my surname? 4..

What are you excited about?

- finish finals & go back home!!

Do you curse a lot?
- not really..rarely..

Anything been heavy on your heart lately?
- yea..feeling sorry to my bro rite now..

Do you drink bottled water?
- of coz!

When was the last time you talked to one of your siblings?
-forgotten..too long since one..

Have you lost friends in the past years?
- nope..

Are you open about your feelings or closed off?
- depends on the situation..

What’s the last thing that made you smile?


Last person you texted?

- piggy..

Do you prefer to take showers at night or in the morning?

Who do you tell everything to?
- most of the bro..

Have you been to New York City?
- lol no..i haven even been to many places in malaysia..

Do you think you have made a difference in anyone’s life?
- i believe i changed many..seriously..

Looking back, did you ever waste too much time on a certain boy or girl?
- yea..but appr4ciate those moments..not so much of wasting time..

Do you remember the name of your first school you ever went to?
- Bodhi Kindy..was so innocent that time..

Do you know anyone addicted to anything?
- yea..lots of addiction people around me are having..

Know anyone who’s been drunk recently?
- nope..

Where is your phone?
- beside me..

What happened at 10:00 am today?
- still sleeping..

Do you know anyone by the name of Lee?
- so so so many..

When was the last time you cried?
- forgotten..had been happy lately..

When was the last time you saw your grandpa?
- i never met my grandpa (father's side) coz he passed away even before my parents got married. My grandpa (mother's side) still healthy and the laz time I met him was during last Gawai.

What was the first thing you did when you woke up?
- check my phone for the time and messages..

How many and what kind of animals are in your house?
- only fishes I guess..and some stray cats that come from I-dun-know-where..

When was the last time something bothered you?
- rite now..felt bad towards my bro..

Do you hate any of your ex’s?
- not really hate..but the irritation of his actions after we broke up..

What is your greatest accomplishment?
- for now..getting scholarship and being in a university at age 17..

Would you rather stay at other peoples houses or have them stay at yours?
- mine..

Who was the last person to smoke a cigarette in your presence?
- er..some international student, dunnoe his name.

Would you ever date anyone with tattoos?
-er..never tried but i dun think so..

Do you ever dance even if there’s no music playing?
- yup!!

Can you play any instruments?

What do you miss about your past?
- lots of stuffs..memories wif my family, couz, frens...

Have you ever had a song written about you?
- not song..but some poems..

Who are you going to tag after this?

-mich, bel, amy, cheryl, puven, eddie

Saturday, November 15, 2008

The Fellowship of Two Kingdoms

Co-curriculum Assessment
Drama Presentation

~The True Box Machine Productions~

The battle between Earth Kingdom & Paradise Kingdom


Afif as Prince Legolas

May Lin as Princess Enellis

Aqilah as Princess Exora

Abang as King Brooke

Stiel as God of War

Mark as Exodus

Nabilla as Goddess Athena

Saddam as Aragorn

Terry as ICT director cum manager


Cast of
actors, actresses, ICT manager
and lighting assistants


Credits to all actors, actresses and
to those who are involved indirectly..

The act may not be perfect,
but it was the result of our commitments and our unity.


Sincerely from :
All members of the
True Box Machine Productions

Tuesday, November 11, 2008


Due to some silly mistakes I made,
I accidentally deleted the whole HTML codes of my blog's template.
I lost everything, but I will reconstruct it back soon.
However, I am busy lately so it may take quite some time..

Never Try, Never Even Think

Talking about suicidal...
Hot topic after church on Sunday...
Kok Chun told us that his junior tried to "cut" herself,
again for the 2
nd time.
Due to family matters : her parents quarreled and stuffs like that.
Then Michelle said 4 to 5 of her friends did that too,
some due to stress and some for fun.
I was like... "what??"
"cut" yourself just for fun?
Michelle said she tried before, cutting her wrist.
But of cause, they aimed somewhere far from the main vein.
And she said some of her friends even carved words on their flesh.
Oh my God, how is that possibly not to be painful?
Even listening to her telling the story "hurts"!!
Well, she said that they do not feel any pain,
cause maybe due to psychological problems, stressed and etc..
that they felt their pain "pouring" out together with their blood.
For those just tried for fun,
maybe they like blood,
or pure satisfaction that they did something crazy and etc..

I am saying maybe...
Why on Earth do you want to kill yourself?

I did felt that way before,
wanting to end my life, wanting to run away from everybody,
wanting to jump off from a tall building and etc..
thinking that I will suffer less, people around me will also suffer less.

But now that I knew God deeper,
I meet different people - all kinds of people.
I experience life "out of the box",
I still am right now...
When I fall, I felt the love of my family and friends around me.
Some may not show much than the other,
but I am loving every moment of my life,
and appreciate each and everyone around me,
good or bad..
For those who think they suffered enough and wanting to end their life,
explore the world and use your brain!!

It is not just about your parents who always quarrel,
it is not just about your siblings who always bully you,
it is not just about your friends who back stabbed you,
it is not just about your boyfriend or girlfriend who dump you...
And it is sure not about you study or work pressure.

Life is way much more than all those.

Shed your tears and move on...
continue to live like there is no tomorrow!
Never try to kill yourself,
You do not have to be that desperate to meet God!!
He will call for you when the time is right,
so just live on when He had given you the chance.

Or do you not know that your body is the temple of the Holy Spirit who is in you, whom you have from God, and you are not your own? For you were bought at a price; therefore glorify God in your body and in your spirit, which are God's.

(I Cor 6:17-20)

source :

Monday, November 10, 2008


This post is so gonna be @!$#^%*&!
I had never seen such a guy before.
Such an embarrassment being a friend and cousin of his.
And totally change my view of guys.
Guys, blame him if you want to.
Seriously he had embarrassed all of you!! it goes...

First, he is so a playboy.
He can just go hook up girls just to be occupied.
I am not sure whether he had realized that he already had a so-called "wife",
(well, that is what he calls her),
but he still goes around trying to hook up girls!

Second, he is an insane sex maniac.
Okay well, he does not really show it in public.
But when he is with his friends,
he does weird actions,
even when a few of his female friends are around.
He did those obscene actions, as if we girls do not understand.
Sometimes his friends just sigh looking at him going insane.

Third, he keep pictures of girls everywhere.
Specifically, his exs, not one or two I guess.
Never send your photo to him cause he may just set it as wallpaper,
on his mobiles or lap top or where so ever.
You may seemed to be his girl on his mobile (to be his wallpaper there),
but on his lap top will be another girl's picture.
Crazy him.

Fourth, he never give up.
It is good in a sense but in another,
it makes him seemed insane.
Girls dump him, i mean all his girls dump him.
He always get dump at the end of the day.
But his mouth is often "attacked by ants",
so sweet till you will get trapped.
And, he tell people you are his girl, even when you are not.

Fifth, he is a hypocrite.
Even when his first promise in relationship is not to be hypocrite,
I guess he never realize that he is.
Having 2 or 3 relationships at a time?
Still loves his ex but dating another girl?
Talks sweetly when he is wooing you but talks like sh*t when you're his?

Lesson learned :
-never trust guys so fast
-try to love your relative, even when he/she is like him
-lie to your parents that he/she is good even when he/she is like him

P/s : confessions of his exs proofs how @!$#^%*& is he.
Not me, I was never his "wife", confessed by his so called "wives".

= = = = = = = = = = = = = = = = = = = = = = = = = = = = = = = = = = =
JOH 15:13  Greater love has no one than this, that he lay down his life for
his friends.

EZE 20:43  There you will remember your conduct and all the actions by
which you have defiled yourselves, and you will loathe yourselves for all
the evil you have done.

PSA 34:13  keep your tongue from evil and your lips from speaking lies.

PSA 5:9  Not a word from their mouth can be trusted; their heart is filled
with destruction. Their throat is an open grave; with their tongue they

EPH 3:17  so that Christ may dwell in your hearts through faith. And I pray 
that you, being rooted and established in love, speak deceit.