Thursday, May 28, 2009


4 more days to Soaring the Eagle, STE (PETRONAS development program for their scholarship holder) and for more days towards Hari Gawai. Yes, you guessed it right. I will not be going back to my village this year, I will not be celebrating Hari Gawai this year. Hari Gawai had been one of the best occasion and one that I enjoyed most. Perhaps because it is celebrated in a long house, compromising of 20 or more houses actually connected to one another. So you can imagine the fun we can have hanging around, visiting houses just few steps away. Unlike during Chinese New Year or Christmas, where we need cars to travel around and it's really troublesome. Or maybe it's during Gawai that I get to stay up until 4 or 5AM just watching people dancing around and getting drunk. It maybe the only time me and my cousins get to hang out, talk craps, gossips till the day gets bright. Sadly I will not have those this year, it will be the 7th by the time I reached Kuching and I'm not sure whether my parents will allow me to go back to my village by then since school holidays will end then. Put the blame on my finals and STE, or maybe people here are not considerate enough since we are the minority, being only 8% of Sarawak - imagine in Malaysia. 4 more days and I had been asking around where can I get a Selamat Hari Gawai card and everyone kept telling me that there is no way I can find it here. Wth! It's not like my grandparents can read emails. Still considering email an e-card to my cousins though.

Most of you may not know me as a Bidayuh, or in specific Bidayuh Salako and I do speak Salako. There are four main Bidayuh dialects namely Biatah, Bau Jagoi, Bukar Sadong and Salako. Biatah is widely spoken in Kuching, Penrissen, Siburan and Padawan district. Bau Jagoi is spoken in the Bau district and Kuching (Bumbok). Bukar Sadong is commonly spoken in Serian, Tebakang and nearby area. Salako is spoken in the Pueh and nearby area. Yes, my Mum is from Pueh - the very end of Borneo Island, Tanjung Dato area. Kalimantan, Indonesia is just over the mountains which can be seen for the nearby beach. My grandparents from my Mum's side came from Indonesia, so I guess that why I realized some of the Salako dialects are similar to Indonesia's. And I guess that's why we catch up Indonesian language quite fast. While my grandparents from my Dad's side came from China, so you can imagine the romantic love story of my parents. Lol...they are both from Sarawak though. Just that my Dad don't speak Malay and my Mum don't speak chinese. The only communication language is English, like me and him. X) I was supposed to join a Kumang Gawai thingy also, and take part in some performing events, sadly the STE popped up and clashed every excitement I had.

Pueh is somewhere the very South Sarawak, just beside Kalimantan :

The blessing event :

Internal view of Pueh Longhouse, where most events take place.

It's called "samik" :

Lastly, I would like to wish all Dayaks
"Selamat Hari Gawai!
"Slamat Ari Gawe!"

Some info about Gawai~

Gawai Day or Gawai Dayak is a festival celebrated in Sarawak on 1 June every year. It is both a religious and social occasion. The word Gawai means a ritual or festival whereas Dayak is a collective name for the native ethnic groups of Sarawak: Iban, Bidayuh, Kayan, Kenyah, Kelabit, and Lun Bawang among others. Thus, Gawai Dayak literally means "Dayak Festival". Dayak would visit their friends and relatives on this day. Such visit is more commonly known as "ngabang" in the Iban language. Those too far away to visit would receive greeting cards.

The mode of celebration varies from place to place. Preparation starts early. Tuak (rice wine) is brewed (at least one month before the celebration) and traditional delicacies like penganan (cakes from rice flour, sugar and coconut milk) are prepared. As the big day approaches, everyone will be busy with general cleaning and preparing food and cakes. On Gawai Eve, glutinous rice is steamed in bamboo (ngelulun pulut). In the longhouse, new mats will be laid out on the ruai (an open gallery which runs through the entire length of the longhouse). The walls of most bilik (rooms) and the ruai are decorated with Pua Kumbu (traditional blankets). A visit to clean the graveyard is also conducted and offerings offered to the dead. After the visit it is important to bathe before entering the longhouse to ward off bad luck.

The celebration starts on the evening of 31 May. In most Iban longhouses, it starts with a ceremony called Muai Antu Rua (to cast away the spirit of greed), signifying the non-interference of the spirit of bad luck in the celebration. Two children or men each dragging a chapan (winnowing basket) will pass each family's room. Every family will throw some unwanted article into the basket. The unwanted articles will be tossed to the ground from the end of the longhouse for the spirit of bad luck.

Around 6 pm or as the sun sets, miring (offering ceremony) will take place. Before the ceremony, gendang rayah (ritual music) is performed. The Feast Chief thanks the gods for the good harvest, and asks for guidance, blessings and long life as he waves a cockerel over the offerings. He then sacrifices the cockerel and a little blood is used together with the offerings.

Once the offering ceremony is done, dinner is then served at the ruai. Just before midnight, a procession up and down the ruai seven times called Ngalu Petara (welcoming the spirit gods) is performed. During this procession, a beauty pageant to choose the festival's queen and king (Kumang & Keling Gawai) is sometimes conducted. Meanwhile, drinks, traditional cakes and delicacies are served.

At midnight, the gong is beaten to call the celebrants to attention. The longhouse Chief (tuai rumah) or Festival Chief will lead everyone to drink the Ai Pengayu (normally tuak for long life) and at the same time wish each other "gayu-guru, gerai-nyamai" (long life, health and prosperity). The celebration now turns merrier and less formal. Some will dance to the traditional music played, others will sing the pantun (poems). In urban areas, Dayaks will organise gatherings at community centres or restaurants to celebrate the evening.

Other activities that may follow the next few days include: cock-fighting matches, and blowpipe and ngajat competitions. On this day, 1 June, homes of the Dayaks are opened to visitors and guests.

Traditionally, when guests arrive at a longhouse, they are given the ai tiki as a welcome. From time to time, guests are served tuak. This would be called nyibur temuai which literally means "watering of guests". Gawai Dayak celebrations may last for several days. It is also during this time of year that many Dayak weddings take place, as it is one of the rare occasions when all the members of the community return home to their ancestral longhouse.

sources from : bidayuh dotcom, Dayak World, Bungai Pegrindu, Universal Bidayuh

Wednesday, May 27, 2009

Confession of a crying baby

I never liked staying at home too long. It makes me feel bored and restless. I was the more outgoing child compared to my cousins. Well, I am comparing myself to my cousins because I am the only girl in the family. It won't make any sense comparing myself to my brothers. They go for camps whole week, whole month. Take break dancing, join foot drill competitions, work out and bla bla bla. I did took dance lessons and joined foot drill competition. But still, nothing in me can compare to their activeness of Dota-ing even after 1 whole week of torturous camp. Me, I used to sleep almost 24 hours after just 1 weekend of sleepless nights at camps. When I entered Uni, I never felt homesick. I don't go back during Chinese New Year or Mid Semester break. I was fine staying in my room 1 whole week watching movies. I used to wonder why are the guys so sissy, they kept being homesick and fly back to Kuching whenever they got the chance to. I was tough, but not for long. I had mental break down quite a few times this semester. Last semester I was in dilemma due to the ex-other half. But that was settled off fast. This semester many things happened. Courses got tougher than I imagined. I worked real hard but sometimes it doesn't seemed to paid off. I set goals for myself but I hardly reached them. Towards the end of the semester, things got worst. I had my braces on, annoying cases to be settled and final exams still hanging in mid air.

Nights after nights I was not being able to sleep well. It has been around 3 nights, I slept around 5AM and woke up around 10AM. Last night I thought I was about to go insane, closing my ears with my hands and prayed to God real hard. Still, I felt as if my head was going to explode. I could feel the blood rushing through the veins. I kept praying and praying and praying until I fell asleep. For 2 consequent exams, I was unable to recall anything I had studied. I felt stupid and useless this semester. I felt like I had gain no knowledge for the past 5 months. The knowledge in my brain are still stucked like last semester. I was awfully down, cried a few times. My friends were there for me, my dear was there for me, though I kept thinking that God did not answered my prayers, I knew He is also always there for me. For some reasons, knowing people cared for me but I was about to disappoint them makes me cry even more. I became confused of what's my aim in life and why are so many things bothering me at the same time. I kept thinking and thinking and thinking unintentionally till there was this thought whether I will become mentally sick or retarded one day.

My Mum short messaged me this evening, I was so touch that I practically almost cried in from of my roomy. Few days back, I told my Dad that I can't understand Chemistry and that the courses this semester are quite tough. Guess after the case of what happened to me during SPM (I blogged about it during my last semester's exam week - click here to read), I will forever be sick during exams. Dear said I am not suitable to for exam system, perhaps I am the more practical kinda person. I don't like memorizing, doing lengthy reports and sitting hours in the exam hall just for the marks. I bet many people hate exams, but they hate field work too. I love field work, minus the field reports. Here's how my Mum's message sounded like and read on to see why I cried after reading it. "How's your exam? Guess it's very tough. Studying is not easy but there is not short cut to comfortable life. Since you have the chance now, just go ahead till you sucess. Bye and lots of love from us at home." The chance she mentioned was me getting a scholarship and entering Uni because she never get the chance when she was younger. I knew she didn't want her children to end up like her, that's why she is always strict on me and my siblings educations. She studied in a rural area and her family was poor. But I am proud enough that she turned out to be a great teacher. I know I will not do well for my exams, I know nobody is forcing me to do well. They want me to just do as much as I can, all of them. But I had always aimed more than my ability, perhaps they were my mistakes. For once, I miss home - so much.

Convict Wanted!!

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This old man is a convict and disaster,
cheating people on eBay to pay his debts.
Beware, he is still around looking for new victims!!
If you know him, please inform me a.s.a.p!
You may also inform his other victim through this blog.
Please help us find him before he finds more victims!!

Tuesday, May 26, 2009

Save the trees!!!

Stuffs happen during exams...
`credit to zsami

And after exams...

`credit to dorks quid


One solution...

Say No to Exams!

*every exam season, I'll be sick*
*It's time to sue Exams for making me sick all the time!!*


I'm tired!
Stop all of these immediately!!
I can't stand it anymore...
Not only my body is exhausted,
my mind is extremely saturated already.
Why all of these have to happen now,
all in a short period of time??
It's 6.30AM now and I'm still trying to study ICIS.
Schedule will be real packed tomorrow onwards.
Tomorrow Chemistry II and Thursday English II.
Friday is the worst, ICIS and Physics II.
Whole week of exam, 2 parcel cases to settle and I'm having PMS?!
I'm tired of all these already, I really am...
And safe mode sucks, I had been using it for almost a month now.
Can't listen to songs, watch movies or upload pictures.
So my posts kinda dull lately.
The last post about my nails, I borrowed my roomy's lap top.

When my dad called and ask me how was the exam,

I could feel my tears accumulating under my eye lopes.
I answered only "yes" and "ok" ,
so that he will not know how unhappy I am.
I did tried my best, I worked real hard.
But still, I was not able to answer the paper.
I am disappointed with myself.
I could had done much more better.

Monday, May 25, 2009

You sucker!!

That guy is the worst animal on Earth.
Not even worth being called a homosapien.
I cursed him suffer from the most terrible sickness.
Hate by everyone around him.
Live in poverty and debts whole life.
He is the worst guy I had met.
Even the last worst one was already worst enough.
He is the worst of the worst.
You moron!! Give me what I deserve!!
Give me what I was supposed to have!
Give me back what you took from me!!!!
Mother fucking son of a bitch!!!!!!

*sorry, I am really emotional today*
*so many things are happening,
and I don't know what else can I do to calm down*

I'm not aiming for Dean's list anymore this semester.

I just screwed one of my hope of A-, or at least B.
E.maths sucks. I screwed up.
The formulas did evaporation when I walked under the sun.
Don't laugh, I really mean it.

Move & strive!!

It's time for a battle that we may or may not win.
No blood will spill but it may cause severe damages.

It's a battle that we must fight with honour and win with dignity.
Too much preparations had been done,
too much sufferings had been faced.

There is no space for us to retreat, no time for us to waste.

Move forward and strive for the best!

Yes, it's the 1st day of Finals.

Engineering Maths II - 2.30pm - Main Hall.

Good luck to all foundation 2's.

Sunday, May 24, 2009

M.fucker!! (as told by annonymous) ^^

Tomorrow is the first day of Finals.
The almost ending of life in Foundation studies.
And the almost-beginning of Semester break.
I am still blogging and blog hopping.
Forgotten what I had studied last few days.
Stupidest insect in the universe fucking disturbing me.
The room damn warm like oven in the desert.
Notes and past years all messed like rubbish dump.
Time ticking like the sun is going to rise any moment.
I just ate mihun, tauge ayam and McFlurry.
Still hungry like shit.
I wanna play diner dash forever and stop studying.
It is addictive, I swear.
Too much craps, I know.
Daddy wants me to take Masters or PhD,
and I am already whining in foundations.
Well, screw all of them.
Especially the fucking insects!!!
Kill them and put the in the box folded by Clare!!!
Hungry, yelling and crapping - signs of depression.

It is depressing,
but at the end of the day,
I still have things to laugh at,

and people who makes me smile. :)

Wednesday, May 20, 2009

Srewed post

study week had been such a waste of time.
spent more time talking, facebook-ing, updating blog,
(as in now and always).
and even sempat do manicure.
for all 10 fingers different colours.
the theme was red for the left hand and blue for right hand.
they are my favourite colours combination,
as you can see in my previous post).

(right hand)

at 1st i thought the neon colour will be weird,
but then it turned out not so bad after all.

(left hand)

omg..don't tell me i'm starting to love pink!
i don't usually like pink but this pink is
unique.. XD

for the manicure, credits to Bel and Mich.
~look! i set the link as your fav colours!! ^^

i just went to take chemistry test 3 paper this afternoon,
good enough i managed to pass the paper - yes, i'm aiming for just pass.

e.maths coursework marks also announced yesterday.
i freakingly lost almost 2o marks already.

*maybe i shud consider removing the filter on my chat box too*
*and perhaps start cursing and spamming my own chat box ~
*like, becoming a psycho cursing in my own blog *

God, please help your child. Amen.

Tuesday, May 19, 2009

Time waster (tag)

The rules are:
a) answer the question below, do a Google Image search with your answer, take a picture from the 1st page of results, do it with minimal words of explanation; and
b) tag 5 people to do the same once you’ve finished answering every question.

1. The age you’ll be on your next birthday:

2. Place you want to travel to:

3. Your favorite place:

4. Your favorite food:

5. Your favorite pet:

6. Favorite color combination:

7. Favorite piece of clothing:

8. Your all time favorite song:

9. Favorite TV show:

10. First name of your celebrity crush:

11. Which town do you live in:

12. Your screen name/nickname:

13. Your first job:

14. Your dream job:

15. One bad habit that you have:

16. Worst fear:

17: Things you’d like to do before you die:

18. The 1st thing you’ll buy if you get $1,000,000:

19. Your husband/wife:

20. What present would you like for your next birthday?

*I tag whoever felt shitti, screwed, useless, psycho,
bored, sleepy, lazy, wana-spent hours-doin-this
after studying the freaking Physics, Chemistry, E.maths and ICIS*

~Warning : I just wasted 3 hours of my study week doing this~

Saturday, May 16, 2009

Every Now and Then

It created a little havoc when the name lists of the development programs : Soaring The Eagle (STE) and Outward Bound School (OBS) was announced all of a sudden. Most people wanted to enter either the first batch or the last since the programs will be done during the Semester break. Most of us had our sweet holiday all well planned but all of a sudden everything need to be canceled due to the last minute announcement (shame on you people who was not aware of the consequences when you make last minute decisions). While for us from Sabah and Sarawak, it will be really troublesome. Despite them sponsoring our travel expenses to and fro, imagine our time to be spent at the airport, in the car to the airport and all the energy wasted to carry our luggages up and down. All we can do now is to swap with someone else from other batch who are kind hearted enough to let their place. The whole thing is really hectic. Finals will be ending on 29th May, we need to pack everything and move out from our hostels by 9AM on 30th May (as I had mentioned in my earlier post - they just can't be a little more understanding), go down KL on the same day (or else where are we going to wonder), get prepared for STE on 31st May, STE starts on 1st June (if the application to bring forward is approved), STE ends on 6th June and flight back to Kuching will be on 7th June (lucky us bought the tickets just at the right time).

Well, enough of STE, just hopefully our application to bring forward the program will be approved. It is now study week, means 1 week before finals and 2 week before holiday/STE starts. I was just browsing through what knowledge I had tried to gain this semester and found out there are too much and I am not sure whether I am able to recover my memory of the 1st few months early and end of the semester. These 2 periods are the critical periods where I am more to procrastinating than gaining knowledge. I shall need to put extra effort this study week, soon before I graduate from Foundation studies and enter Undergraduate. Wish me luck and good luck to you all out there facing the same problem with me! X)

Thursday, May 14, 2009

Me vs Braces (Part 2)

So here I am in my room blogging, the 4th day since I did my braces.
Yea, I did my braces on Monday - in exact time, it was 10am.
I had to skip 3 lectures -
(the "what??" Chem, last ICIS lecture and the ever important E.Maths),
making me even more miserable after missing a whole week of lecture last week.
Thanks to my roomy who went with me, she had to skip 1 lecture for that.
Maybe like what all of you expected, I had chosen red colour.
These 4 days, I am sickly enduring the pain.
First 2 days were kinda bad- the pain was almost unbearable,
took tablets of pain killer.

I was not able close my mouth properly, which is kinda pathetic.
I can't chew properly, had not been eating nice food and my lips get dry easily.
Even skipped 2 English tutorials because I tried to avoid taking more pain killers,
but ended up lying in my bed trying to get some sleep to stop the sufferings.
4 days had passed, I am getting used brushing my teeth more often
(after food, naps, sleeps).

I learned to use lip gloss more often, to avoid chapped lips, hehe.. :)
To drink more water, I am currently drinking almost 2 L per day.
It's a record cause I used to drink 0.5L only before I did my braces.
Friends had been really nice to me, understanding and caring as ever.
Since my brother is having braces too,
now there are 2 members in the family having "metal fence".
Baby Mich is currently still at the dentist while I am blogging.
Can't wait to see her having braces too!
Then we'll be braces neighbours. XD
Till the next part! Stay tuned!

Thanks to Mr.J for being understanding and still loves me,
despite the metal fencing I am having and all the complains I had made.
p.s. I love U..

Wednesday, May 13, 2009

Not yet a Geoscientist, never will an Engineer

After making loads of comparisons and thinking, I finally decided to go for Petroleum Geoscience. Previously I was in Petroleum Engineering. I found out that the 2 courses are almost similar, just that Petroleum Geoscience is the earlier stage of petroleum and gas exploration compared to Petroleum Engineering, which is the 2nd stage. Actually, the only strong point for me to stay with Petroleum Engineering is because Petroleum Geoscience is a new course, with limited place for 40 students only and, I will never be an engineering if I am to choose geoscience. And great enough, like always, I love taking challenges to know how far is my ability. I was in dilemma since my parents let me decide myself since they do not mind which ever course I plan to take. That is when the problems come because I am not a good decision maker. So I ended up calling my dad in front of the registrar office 30 minutes before my Physics test and 1 and half hour before the registration is to be closed. Lastly I handed in my registration form for Petroleum Geoscience and full stop. Then my dad told me that I need to study till Master or PhD. Looking at the number of graduates now, I have no doubt I am going to pursue further - if I still have the spirit at that time.

p/s : still no confirmed...
The management still need to consider whether I am qualified to change course..

My lap top crashed...
Now using safe mode with networking...
Totally sucky cause I can't listen to songs and watch videos anymore...

Resolution of screen also changed...

Internet connection sucky, can't update often...

Having Engineering Maths quiz tomorrow, need to study...
Wait up for my up coming post on "Me vs Braces Part 2"...

Study week next week - procastination...

Monday, May 4, 2009

Me vs Braces (Part 1)

Had 2 teeth extracted last Saturday. It was not as painful as I thought, perhaps the dentist is more professional than the one who last extracted my tooth - which was years ago and it was that moment I started to get traumatized by dentist. My friends were supportive enough, especially Baby Mich (read up her blog : Girl in Red). We are getting braces together and she went in the surgery room with me. Thanks cousie! :) And we both love red, or perhaps it is more obvious that she loves red a lil bit more than I do, don't get offended k baby. It's a good thing. X)

The dentist said my condition is complicated. Not only my teeth are not aligned, my jaw is also not aligned. The first time when I visited the dentist, he suggested me to go for jaw sugery - which is a major surgery where I will need to "cut off" my jaw and reconnect it at the correct alignment using screws. Me, being very afraid of even small needles was shocked and speechless that very moment. The doctor asked me to consult my parents and all I did was nodding (of course as a meaning "yes"). Since the cost of the surgery is minimum around RM20,000 and need to be done by bone specialist in KL, I decided to drop it, one-being afraid of needles and two-the dentist said it is not so important but will influence the braces a lil. Yea, it was the word "a lil" that I decided not going for the surgery. Then another complication, the dentist found out there is a tooth stucked in my upper jaw after I took the x-ray. The tooth had fully develop but was unable to grow out because there is no space for it.

I am going to have my 2nd extraction this coming Saturday. This time 3 teeth, God knows how hard I prayed for the last extraction. I'll just pray a little bit harder this time since 1 extra tooth will be extracted. It does feel weird having holes in my mouth here and there. I can't wait to get braces though. Most probably will be getting it before study week. Hopefully there will be spaces available and hopefully I can bear the dizziness or any slight pain while studying during study week. The last lecture week, I will be going around with 5 teeth missing. Please don't put the blame on me if I ended up smiling less, crapping less and laughing less - even if I don't show my teeth, I'll still love you all. XP

Mr.J (please take note : that is what I am going to start referring him to in my blog) kept laughing at me because everytime I smile, the hole can be seen. But good enough he said he still miss my smile. XP I actually asked him why he still loves me, I told him I am ugly and showed him the silly smile with the holes and crooked teeth. He said he still loves me and in no time my teeth will be much better than his. I told him that will take 2 years or more, and asked him whether he will still love me then when I am 21 years old. He said there is no reason for him to stop loving me. *melts* Yea, perhaps he is true. My teeth and smile will look better in 2 years time and still, now and then or so, there is no reason for me to stop loving him and for him to stop loving me. He is so sweet. Awww! XP

~End of Part 1~

Friday, May 1, 2009

So Far - So Good

So here I am back to updating my blog while the connection is "quite" fast I can say. Perhaps today is a holiday, most students are back home. Well, especially the Undergraduates since the coming week is already their study week. For Foundies like me, 3 more weeks to go before we are free, as in start our approximately 6 weeks holiday. Coming week we are having 3 tests in 2 days, Chemistry, ICIS and Physics. I am not sure how am I going to cope with that but oh well, life. All we need to do is to live it, love it and laugh as much as we could, of cause during the correct time or else someone might think something is wrong with you.

Talking about the past few weeks - had my drama presentation, went "ok" I guess, though not as good as the other groups. Went for Convo Fair committee interview, did not expect much for such a large and pretigious event but just for experience perhaps. Had Physics quiz, went well. Had Engineering Maths test 2, and the only thing I hope for is no careless mistakes, not gonna forget what happened to my Quiz 3 - I lost 6 marks just due to 1, I mean a single stroke (of square root).

And, about the pictures for Jeremy's, Nuzul's and Clare's birthday, I am really sorry that I lost the pictures due to some virus and worms. Yea, my lap top clashed last week, the same day I was having drama. Worst, theTrojan Horses attacked my thumbdrive from the CAL Lab, it infected my lap top. It was my fault to not scan it first. Then, I plugged in my SD memory card, which then got infected from my lap top. It should be a lesson for me to be aware when I plug my thumbdrive into the CAL Lab USBs.

About the Semester break, we are asked to clear our rooms before 9am on 30th May. How can they be so cruel just because the Juniors are moving in?? We are finishing our Finals on 29th afternoon and they want us to clear our rooms over the night. Maybe it is is easy for the West Malaysians, who can just send their stuffs back during study week. But how about us? Let the wise man think. By the way, I will be going back on 7th June, together with my roomy and coming back on 15th July. Holidays will be from 30th May till 19th July. Yea, obviously we are going back late and coming back early. Since we are having too many stuffs to pack, and there is not reason why we want to stay home so long (for some reasons we are compatible in getting messy, watching horror movies and not getting home sick. :P).

I guess that's all for now. Gonna take my bath, take dinner and be prepared to start studying for the coming 3 tests in 2 days. Things may not be so great right now - warm weather, terrible tests and quizes results, super messy room, sucky internet connection, overload laundry basket, same old food at the cafe, failing interviews. But well, life is great as it is. Give thanks to God for everything, life's short and you may not know what is going to happen next, not only old people go you know. Talking about this, I remembered what Kavita said, she told my roomy that she may go tomorrow, today, the very next second or she can even live another 100 years. She may even be the oldest woman living on Earth. Well, you will never know till you live your life right...