Saturday, May 31, 2008

My Name Means.. (kinda true)

What Kueh Mei Lin Means

You are a seeker of knowledge, and you have learned many things in your life.

You are also a keeper of knowledge - meaning you don't spill secrets or spread gossip.

People sometimes think you're snobby or aloof, but you're just too deep in thought to pay attention to them.

You are a very lucky person. Things just always seem to go your way.

And because you're so lucky, you don't really have a lot of worries. You just hope for the best in life.

You're sometimes a little guilty of being greedy. Spread your luck around a little to people who need it.

You are friendly, charming, and warm. You get along with almost everyone.

You work hard not to rock the boat. Your easy going attitude brings people together.

At times, you can be a little flaky and irresponsible. But for the important things, you pull it together.

You are truly an original person. You have amazing ideas, and the power to carry them out.

Success comes rather easily for you... especially in business and academia.

Some people find you to be selfish and a bit overbearing. You're a strong person.

You are confident, self assured, and capable. You are not easily intimidated.

You master any and all skills easily. You don't have to work hard for what you want.

You make your life out to be exactly how you want it. And you'll knock down anyone who gets in your way!

You tend to be pretty tightly wound. It's easy to get you excited... which can be a good or bad thing.

You have a lot of enthusiasm, but it fades rather quickly. You don't stick with any one thing for very long.

You have the drive to accomplish a lot in a short amount of time. Your biggest problem is making sure you finish the projects you start.

You are relaxed, chill, and very likely to go with the flow.

You are light hearted and accepting. You don't get worked up easily.

Well adjusted and incredibly happy, many people wonder what your secret to life is.

You are very intuitive and wise. You understand the world better than most people.

You also have a very active imagination. You often get carried away with your thoughts.

You are prone to a little paranoia and jealousy. You sometimes go overboard in interpreting signals.

Friday, May 23, 2008


AC : He told me not to love him, because he will only hurt my feelings.
He is very sure we will not end up together, till now...
He asked for a break up, but I broke into tears..and begged him the whole night.
He took back his words at last. I knew, he still loves me when he asked for a break up, he just don't want to hurt me anymore..
Then comes the 2nd break up, it was smooth as 1st as we were thinking about our future that was never meant for us.
But as days past, we realized that all we need is to love each other.
I cried most of the time thinking why we can't end up together,
why can't we let the whole world know how much we meant to each other..
All I want to do is to love him..
AC=Author's Comment

^*~Author's Choice for this confession~*^

Rainie Yang (楊丞琳, Yang Cheng Lin)
Zhi Xiang Ai Ni (只想愛你)

Chinese Lyrics

心跳的聲音 像舞動奇蹟

你那麼冷靜 忽遠又忽近





English Translation

I finally still said the words "I love you"
I still remember that cool night
a light rain was just falling from the sky
the sound of my heartbeat was as miraculous as dancing

AC:I remember the 1st time I told you that I love you was through a short message.

I was so nervous and not certain of my decision.

After a few months, we then realized at th beginning, we were just fooling around.

None of us were serious, but by the time we knew it, it was impossible for us to be apart.

Looking at me, you told me not fall in love with you at all costs
Because you will only break my heart
"Don't be foolish, stop it quickly"
You were so calm, so far yet suddenly so near

AC:I knew during our 1st break up that you still love me as much as i love you.

You just did that cause you knew we were going through too much sufferings.

But you did not know that what you said had hurt me even more than what we when through.

I know that, to you, I may seem too young
I thought, I guessed, I asked, I finally understood
Turns out that crying because of love
is also a type of sweetness

AC:Since the first day you told me that we will never end up together,

it was too late.

Since then, I had been crying..

But every time I cry, you will be there for me.

I realized, if crying can bring you close to me..

I don't mind crying happy tears my whole life.

I just want to love you
When you and I walked together I had already decided
I won't look, won't listen, won't ask, and I won't give up
It is you who lets me realize
how sure I can be for love

AC:All I want to is to love you.

We had walked all kinds of paths together.

We both cried, we both suffer, we both smile & we both laugh.

But we never give up on each other.

We knew we were not meant for each other,

but we knew we had found true love.

I just want to love you
I want to be able to see you every day when I open my eyes
I know I occasionally can be a bit impulsive
It doesn't matter whether you
choose to escape or choose to love me after all

AC:If I could only have one wish, I would wish to wake up everyday to the sound of your breath on my neck, the warmth of your lips on my skin, and the feel of your heart beating with mine.

Knowing that I could never find that feeling with anyone else.

By the end of the day, it does not matter how we end up to be.

Whether we choose to face it or to escape, all we will remember are our memories together.

Sorry I still won't give up loving you

AC:For now, I will not give up loving you..

AC=Author's Comment

Thursday, May 22, 2008

Japanese Government (Monbukagakusho) Scholarship

I did not believe when my mum told me that I got a letter from the Embassy of Japan. I am shortlisted for the Japanese Scholarship that I applied after my JPA interview. I applied for Natural Science B - Medicine. At that moment I was so bored (super long holiday), so I don't mind writing 2 short essays for the scholarships. I admit my essays were quite "powerful". *sigh* hehe.. jk..

But since I got Petronas (not to "cakap besar", just stating a reason here),
I am not going to sit for the written examination of 5 SUBJECTS - English Language, Mathematics B., Biology, Chemistry and Japanese Language (which I am surely to fail if I sit for it).

Besides, the examination is on 1st of June (I surely don't want to miss my Gawai celebration this year - all my relatives are coming back) and in Kuala Lumpur (how can I fly there last minute just to take the exam? *duh*)

I was told that this is a very good scholarship, where you will be given full scholarships to study in Japan in any field (Natural Science A-physics, Natural Science B-biology and some art subject such as accounting, law and business). But, no regrets...Everything is in God's hand.

Wednesday, May 21, 2008

Cnt : JabbaWockeeZ Dance Compilation (Part 1&2)

~JabbaWockeeZ Official Website~

Tuesday, May 20, 2008


~Here are some of my latest pictures~

the usual me..

me in side ponytail..

me..trying the "bird nest" hairstyle

the long lost me a.k.s ghost,
I don't have dark eye bags..
that's the effect of the "lousy" brown eyeliner







~Funny Brothers~

I was teaching my youngest brother about long-sighted,
short-sighted, concave lens & covex lens (left in black).
Then he wrote a lyrics from The Jonas Brothers -
"When U Look Me In The Eye" (right in green).
However, my 2nd brother modified the lyrics.

Here's a clearer view of the modified lyrics-
"When U poke me in the eye"..-.-"








My parents' mobiles-couple mobiles.
I wonder why they had always mistaken their phones.
Only the colours are the same..

A super pink Teachers' Day present
my mum got from her students

Monday, May 19, 2008


再加上我的华语只读到中三,所以差不多已有两年没写 华语字了。
都是英 语英语,马来语马来语的。。。


(我知道错字多。。sorry, I'm still learning..)

Saturday, May 17, 2008

Why I drop my ambition

I wonder whether I had made the right choice by choosing Petronas. I admit that I admired those who got JPA and have the chance to study overseas, but the thought of serving the government for so long (10 years) and had your pay being deducted every month to pay for the money they had spent for you makes me think over and over. Thus, even for Petronas, I had set studying overseas as my last choice. Studying locally means they spent less money on me, i still get a job and less deduction on my salary. *sigh* However, I will not be reluctant if I am required to carry out my duty overseas in the future..higher pay marh..hehe:)

Sadly, I have to forget my dream to be a doctor. Well, I knew I will never succeed being a doctor. I went for a blood test around 1 month ago - only to check for my blood type as we are required to to enter matriculation. The moment I saw thee needle, I asked my mum whether I can escape from the blood test, kept on asking the nurse whether it will be very painful. And I almost cried and ran out of the lab. After the blood test, my whole arm was so weak even though it was not that painful..and I had the little plaster on the same spot for 3-4 days.

After that day, I knew it was never my destiny to be a doctor. The only reason I really wanted to be a doctor was to help people, as both of my parents had near-death experience before, meaning, I almost lost both of them..My dad had very severe sickness (stones forming in his gall bladder & near his backbone), which was only fully treated in Singapore. My mum had part of her small intestine cut off and her whole womb removed (the doctor said she may had not survived if we sent her an hour later).My parents experiences are the reasons I wanted to be a doctor. But since I am so afraid of needles, feel sick when I see packets of blood and etc, I think being an engineering is a better option.

Besides, who said petroleum engineers earn less and works tougher than doctors? haha:)

I also e-mailed an astrologist a.k.a "shuan ming"..and this is what she sent back to me :

Hello May,

May, this reading which I have produced for you last week is extremely important as it shows that you will soon be entering into an astrological transit which is going to have an enormous importance for you. To be more precise it seems that you are going to have the possibility to transform your life with a unexpected gain of money reach a decisive and very favorable point in your love life during this transit which will last 88 days. This is going to be one of the strongest moments of your year and I can confirm that you will not live though such an intense astrological transit for a very long time to come.

If I am contacting you again today May, it is because I know that if you wait for this period to occur without properly preparing yourself for it and without knowing exactly what you should do and at which moment you should act then you will unfortunately miss out on this valuable opportunity. You need all of the vital information which a full astrological reading can bring you.

May, I know that each one of us counts on our own intuition but believe me, in my experience, this is often not enough. As far as you are concerned the Transit which you will soon live through is too important for you to risk missing out on it. As this period now seems to be very close (only a full astrological calculation will be able to determine the exact date of this period) I think it is urgent that you act now. I am entirely at your disposition to furnish you with all of the information which you need. This information will respond to all of your questions concerning the precise moment of this Transit, what you can expect exactly, what you should do to seize all of the chances which this period will bring you, in which places and times you should be in and much, much more...

However, I did not really understand part of her e-mail.. -.-"

Monday, May 12, 2008

JabbaWockeez Rockx!!

Connie Talbot

she's young, talented & adorable..
just listen..

Sunday, May 11, 2008

I Knew It!

As I had thought earlier on, for sure I will not get JPA..
because my interview sucks..
Well, no matter what, I'm still going to UTP..
And this time, I will not change my plan..
Bought my air tickets already
(my whole family will be going..*sigh*)

I would like to congrats my dearest friends..
Beverly, Ah Mei, Ilmy & Jene for getting JPA and decided to go for it.
All the best girls!!
It's really a dream come true for them..
as they really like the course they choose.

Unlike me who simply choose..
(obviously I'm not going to appeal)


Saturday, May 10, 2008

Green Gallery

Reflection of Me & Mummy

Lots & lots of FLOWERS

Lots & lots of CLOCKS

Lots & lots of EARRINGS

Lots & lots of GLASSES

My Own Manicure

1st, I trimmed my nails.

2nd, I cleaned my nails using lime juice.

3rd, I painted the base coat silvery yellow (kinda glow in dim light).

4th, I sticked on the nails deco (I had chosen the flo
wery & small hearts pattern).

5th, I applied the top coat which is transparent to protect the nails & deco.

--Here they are--

Friday, May 9, 2008

Final Destination

Form 6
Not offered (since I am offered matriculation)

Tunku Abdul Rahman College A Level
Reject last minute (after I paid all the fees..
go for matriculation..)

Labuan Matriculation College
Reject last minute (after I paid all the fees..
go for UTP..)

Maktab Perguruan
Reject (course offered not suitable)

Universiti Teknologi Malayasia
Reject (course offered not suitable)

Program Pendidikan Universiti Teknologi Petronas
(I'm coming..
cause I don't wanna go for JPA even if I got it)

Program Ijazah Luar Negara Jabatan Perkhidmatan Awam
(still waiting for result..
but not going even if I get it..
prefer UTP's course)

~~Final Destination~~

Universiti Teknologi Petronas (UTP), Perak
July intake (around 12th July 2008)

Thursday, May 8, 2008

I Love My Girlz!

Girlz..thanx for everything..
We knew each other less than 5 months (except Verene)
but I will not forget all the memories we had together..

Love ya girlz!

Thank you for joining my farewell supper at Mc D..
I hope to see all of u soon..
Good luck & May God Bless U!

~~Farewell Supper~~

Joanna & M@y

Annie & M@y

M@y & Mag a.k.a Margret

Verene & M@y

M@y & Santa

Zte Wee & M@y

The Mc D eaters & posers

Smile! =)

*from left*
Zte Wee, Mag, Santa, Annie & Joanna..

Joanna & Santa with Mr. Mc D

Annie & M@y with Mr. Mc D

*I'm Loving It..*

Annie on the phone, Santa-bluek, Verene & Mag rapat2,
M@y & Joanna smile, Zte Wee-PEACE!

Future Kumang Sarawak *sigh*

Yo! Wassup wassup!
*Santa was too*

Thanx for the farewell card & shirt girlz..
I love them so much.
I really love the card, so touching..
& thanx for knowing my right size, which is XS (extra small).. :)

~~Farewell Video~~

Flying off to KK on the 9th..
hope to see u all soon..
keep in touch yer!
God Bless!

Tuesday, May 6, 2008

Re : Too Many Interviews..Will I have More Choices Too??

Re : Well, I just found out seconds ago.. Besides getting TARC, JPA, Petronas, Matriculation & Maktab Perguruan, I am also offered Diploma in Technology Management at Universiti Teknologi Malaysia (UTM). I rejected the offer after I saw the course duration is 3-5 years. I can't waste so much time just for diploma. And, the course fee is too expensive (even though the government do give allowance)..still much more expensive than matriculation I mean.

Besides that, I decided to ignore the Maktab Perguruan offer. I know it may not be that tough for me..but it will be too stressful. I have to go for interview and write a few essays. These are the aspects required in the interview : general knowledge (about education and current issues in the country and foreign countries), ability to communicate well and good manner. The essays that we are required to write are about : "Why did you choose to be a teacher?", "Your experience in education field" and "If you are selected, what can you contribute towards the profession?". To me, it is quite time demanding in doing the i decided to ignore the offer.

On the other hand, the name list of lower 6 students had just being announced today. But for sure, entering form6 would be my last choice. I had made things clear between me and my parents straight after I finish SPM. I will not enter form6 no matter what..and my parents said they are willing to come out with their own money if I don't get any scholarships or matriculation. Thanks Daddy & Mummy! Love both of u! =)

But I guess I am really lucky..I got offered matriculation and thus, my parents do not have to spend too much on me. At least they can save more for my brothers, or use the money for extra expenses..such as for my flights and etc.

So and so, after being successfully offered this and that...I decided to continue in matriculation labuan while waiting for Petronas and JPA, which of cause are my 1st and 2nd choice.


Sunday, May 4, 2008

New Member in the family!

My cousin and his wife just had their 2nd child.. It's a boy!! hehe..:) well..since he was just born yesterday, 3rd May 2008 at cousin and his wife had not named their baby yet..
So he is name
temporarily after his elder brother's nickname "Adesh", but with at Jr. (junior) behind - Adesh Jr.

Baby (Distance)

Baby (Up close)

Baby & Mummy

Saturday, May 3, 2008

Too Many Interviews..Will I have More Choices Too??

As you all know, I had been called for interview for Jabatan Perkhidmatan Awam(JPA) overseas scholarships and Petronas scholarships. And now, I am called for interview for Maktab Perguruan to teach Secondary School Mathematics. You may all think I am lucky..but I am not sure whether I am really lucky, or I applied too many things until I am not sure which is my real choice.. -.-"

Till now, I had been called for 3 interviews. I went through the first and second and now, I have to go through the third AGAIN. The third interview is the Maktab Perguruan interview which will be held here in Kuching. But since I am going for matriculation, the person in charge will change my interview location to my matriculation college at labuan.

I was only called for INTERVIEWS, and I am not being CHOSEN yet. Being interviewed is really different with being chosen. For example, in 1000 persons who went for the interview, the chosen ones may only be 200 persons.

Before any of the results of the interviews being announced, I am not considered lucky. Well, despite being offered TARC, matriculation & being shortlisted for JPA, Petronas and Maktab Perguruan interviews..I think that these chances given to me are making me more and more confused, making me "walking" further and further for my dream. Wait a minute, WHAT IS MY DREAM???

Oh well, let me just enter matriculation and attend the Maktab Perguruan interview first since the results of the other interviews are yet to be announced. After that, I will decide my future.

Journey Walked By My Hair =)

Thursday, June 28, 2007, 12:16:54 AM
* This was the time when my hair was the longest..
And the 2nd time I rebonded my hair..
I never had my hair kept so long..around 2 years..
But then, i got tired of tying my hair.
I wasted a lot of time drying my hair..*

Friday, August 24, 2007, 10:02:56 AM
* I made a sudden change..
I cut my long hair until it was super short..
I felt really comfortable with my new hair..
But at the same time, I miss my long hair..*

Saturday, February 09, 2008, 9:48:36 AM
* After feeling a little regret cutting my hair super short,
I decided to leave my hair long again..
So I had not cut my hair since then..*

Thursday, March 13, 2008, 1:43:14 PM
* This is also a major change towards my hair..
For your info, I had temporarily curled my hair for a dinner before.
But you know, I felt boring with straight hair..
so i decided to make a major change-perming my hair permanently,
despite being advised that curly hair is very difficult to managed..*

Friday, May 02, 2008, 05:55:22 PM
* I understand how difficult is to manage curly hair..
so, another change after not more than 2 months.
My hair is straight again..
Luckily all the chemicals & heat did not spoil my hair..
After rebond-rebond-perm-rebond in juz 3 years,
my hair is still doing fine.. :)
Thanx to my fav saloon..Loving it!!*