Monday, November 30, 2009

Psycho racist attack - take 2

This post is the continuation of my past post :
Psycho racist attack

The thought of having peace after that 2 months
turns out to create more nightmares.


0135735077 : Do you good in english?

Jim : Sorry cant chat. Busy now.

*wtf of course he is busy he's having bloody spm*

0135735077 : Okay,i'm just want to find someone that can chat in english,
to improve my english.sorry for this.

Jim : Hope you can find. Sorry.

Few minutes ago...

0145965966 : Hye2...

Jim (talking to me) : I think this fellow sells numbers .

*my brother mean sim cards/ starter packs*

Me (talking to my brother) : yes. maybe.

I believe take 3 will take place anytime soon.

Stay tuned.


warning : this is a very horrible terrible vegetable post.

I blog like this cause that's how I talk, sometimes. :D

I feel free to express this way,

cause I am tense up being so bored right now.

*notice the italicize*

semalam sia p itu ICT fair aka PC fair.

itu lepas sia and adik2 sia p church la.

manyak2 orang owh...

itu musik juga sangat nyaring.

then sia sama2 adik2 sia jalan 2 round.

1st round itu mau survey2 harga dulu.

tapi mana tau 1st round sia uda beli headphones.

itu 2nd round sia beli 2 biji pendrive.

1 untuk sia, 1 untuk mama sia.

sebab sia teda cukup lui,

so sia pinjam dulu dari adik.

adik kecik sia ini pandai savings owh.

teda macam sia.

lepas itu fair kami p Watsons,

sia beli pore pack.

adik2 sia beli itu minuman bina muscle.

lepas itu terus balik rumah lor...

petang itu sia p dancing classes.

aduh, macam apa saja sebab sia nda dapat catch up.

diaorang uda blaja jaoh owh...

then malam tadi sia nonton 2 blockbuster movies.

tdo hampir 3am.

pagi tadi sia bangun 8am.

huahuahua...tdo 5 jam saja.

terpaksa sia bangun awal sent adik p practice menyanyi.

lepas itu dengan mama p beli vegetables di market.

p itu Cosway juga.

beli 3 jenis intensive products untuk kulit sia.

masih kering tapi better than 10 years ago.

Ini dia gambar2 itu lotion2 and scrub.

Sia curi orang lain punya gambar sebab camera sia buruk.

Maaf teda credit sebab sia uda lupa dari mana sia curi.

Sunday, November 29, 2009

Protect the minority

Yes, me.

I feel sort of offended today.

Just because I am small sized.

Usually called petite,

that doesn't mean I am weak.

Watched a beauty program just now,

on how to wear clothes and make yourself look slimmer.

It is always "how to look slimmer".

Yeah, cause more people are fat.

No offense, I eat a lot.

Seriously, my appetite grew day by day.

But still, no difference in weight or height.

People only show this expression when I eat --> O.o

Then they continue treating me like a child.

Why don't out of 10 episodes,

make at least 1 on "how to look fatter"?

Then I was browsing through the net to find dance shoes.

I found this special order for size 9 and above,

why aren't there for size 4 and below?

Like always, no one care about the minority.

Padini is the only one with size 3 but only some designs.

Some baby tees are only China made.

If any of you know where to find XS clothes and size 3 shoes,

please do not hesitate to tell :D

Saturday, November 28, 2009

Psycho racist attack

Below are text conversations between my brother, Jimmy
and 3 anonymous numbers.

Warning : this post contains some racist materials
and is not suitable for sensitive people.
(exact words from the text messages)

Out of the blue moon...

0165765557 : Towk Taufik kawh?? _

Jim : No. Where you get this number?

0165765557 : So, who is this? My fwenz give this 6ber to me..
who's this?

Jim : No, I'm not Taufik. I'm Jimmy.

0165765557 : I don't think so.. where you from?? Why this 6ber at you..
You Taufik or you lie me.. Explian to me where you from??
And how old are you??

*don't believe then no need la. ask so much what for??*

Jim : Sorry, this year exam. Cannot chat.

0165765557 : Can you be my fwenz.. If you old down 17..
I dont have a lot fwenz,and I want you to be my chat fwenz..
You agree..

Jim : Sorry, really cannot chat.

A few hours later...

0165765557 : Please jimmy!! I need your help...

*help to?? kick your ass so that you can stop disturbing him during his exam??*

Jim : Sorry credit very low. Can't reply anymore.

The next day...

0109736068 : Hye??!!..

Jim : Sorry, last msg. Credit really really low.

0109736068 : Jim,,you must relord to reply mine or whatever or whereever you are..

*as if my brother is an animal or something wtf*

1 and a half months later...

0198550454 : Why are you so angry?? You still young or have wife/husband..
From where?? You christian or malay?

*you text people and don't even know the gender??!!*

0198550454 miss called Jim twice.

Jim (credit dry, use brother's number to reply)

Jim : You called me. Now i'm replying with my other number. Who r u?
when did i get angry?

*yeah right...your "other" number. lol*

0198550454 : Sorry, just now wrong number. You jimmy right??
Can you be my friend? I am Aida. Where you from?

*suddenly, she said she's Aida and she knows she is texting Jimmy. wtf*

Jim : No time to chat. Sorry.

0198550454 : No, i dont want to chat with you.. I just want to be your friend..
Please.. i lonely.. where you live... give your number house..
I hope you want to give that..

*walao...lonely also can randomly hook up meh...*

The next day...

Jim : Aiyoh. Now i still exam. Busy ah, how make friend?

0198550454 : Yuupp.. Fine... You want me to go is'nt?? Okey.. sure.. I'm goin now..
We not to chat again.. Ok!! You want that is'nt?
Mesti awak nie org cina kan?? Tak nak lah kwn dgn org bukan islam..
Buang masa je.. Kalau awak org islam kan senang nak kongsi cerita
pasal islam.. Kalau nak,apa salahnya kan.. Can you read malaY?

*this is a moron message. so racist.
type finish then ask whether my bro can read malay. psycho*

Jim (topped up his credit) : Lol. Like that also got. Ok lah go good also.
Btw, i'm not chinese, i'm dayak.

(no reply anymore. Jim had peace for the first time in 2 months)

How hilarious, racist and desperate people can be.
Dial random numbers and force people to be your friend wtf
These 3 numbers are believed to be of the same person,
of unknown gender
(though unbelievably appear as Aida at the end).

You've been warned.
If you think this post is disturbing your sensitive mind,
press Alt+f4.

The story of a girl

This is the story of a girl....

Who wants to learn guitar, dancing and singing in less than 2 months.

Who sleeps at random time between 10pm to 3am for no reason.

Who over sleeps and stays awake for no reason.

Who wants to get angry and ignore her boyfriend.

Who wakes up only to see his sweet message and smile to herself.

Who carries her laptop up and down everyday.

Who visits blog shops everyday but seldom find suitable ones.

Who grew up with short gel head.

Who was always a sweeper in school.

Who cannot wipe the window pans cause she is too short.

Who writes silly Mandarin essays can make you laugh till you peng.

Who once love blue but now admires red.

Who thinks her memory is depleting fast.

Who eats lots but never grow fat.

Who is dark since born not because kawad kaki too much.

Who adores vacation more than gadgets.

Who only plays Solitaire and not Dota or The Sims when she is bored.

Who wants to build a house near the beach but scared of Tsunami.

Who will ran away or shiver when she sees needle.

Who says fuck and shit very often but under control.

Who won't occupy much space in the car.

Who loves Korean and Indonesian drama.

Who only wears XS or S clothes.

Who wears shoes size 2 or size 3 at most.

Who has naturally straight hair but I straightened it again so yeah.

Who genetically has skin problem.

Who visits skin specialist since she was 7 or 8 years old.

Who prefers Pizza Hut over KFC and KFC over McDonald.

Who hates insects as much as she hates needles.

Who never thought she will get paid for studying ya scholarships.

Who thinks studying is a very tough job will little pay but worth it.

Who wrote this because she is too bored. :)

Tuesday, November 24, 2009


ohsorandom :

My brother print screened this page.
It was on the desktop while he was blog hopping.
I was busy watching two and a half man
when he called for me.
See me in the nuffnang column
on bottom right of the screen. :D

Man Rules

~ Babe e-mailed me this, I knew why. XD

The Man Rules

These are our rules!
Please note.. these are all numbered '1 '

1. Men are NOT mind readers.

1. Learn to work the toilet seat.
You're a big girl. If it's up, put it down..
We need it up, you need it down.
You don't hear us complaining about you leaving it down.

1.. Sunday sports It's like the full moon or the changing of the tides.
Let it be.

1. Crying is blackmail.

1. Ask for what you want..
Let us be clear on this one:
Subtle hints do not work!
Strong hints do not work!
Obvious hints do not work!
Just say it!

1. Yes and No are perfectly acceptable answers to almost every question.

1. Come to us with a problem only if you want help solving it. That's what we do.
Sympathy is what your girlfriends are for.

1. Anything we said 6 months ago is inadmissible in an argument.
In fact, all comments become null and void after 7 Days.

1. If you think you're fat, you probably are.
Don't ask us.

1. If something we said can be interpreted two ways and one of the ways makes you sad or angry, we meant the other one

1. You can either ask us to do something or tell us how you want it done.
Not both.
If you already know best how to do it, just do it yourself.

1. Whenever possible, Please say whatever you have to say during commercials.

1.. Christopher Columbus did NOT need directions and neither do we.

1. ALL men see in only 16 colours, like Windows default settings.
Peach, for example, is a fruit, not A colour. Pumpkin is also a fruit. We have no idea what mauve is.

1. If it itches, it will be scratched...
We do that.

1. If we ask what is wrong and you say 'nothing,' We will act like nothing's wrong.
We know you are lying, but it is just not worth the hassle.

1. If you ask a question you don't want an answer to, Expect an answer you don't want to hear.

1. When we have to go somewhere, absolutely anything you wear is fine... Really.

1. Don't ask us what we're thinking about unless you are prepared to discuss such topics as baseball or motor sports.

1. You have enough clothes.

1. You have too many shoes.

1. I am in shape. Round IS a shape!

Saturday, November 21, 2009

where I belong

home sweet home!

landed in Kuching on AK5214 at 7pm.

took dinner with my family.

then went shopping with them.

got back to my comfy bed.

everytime I'm back,

there will be some changes at home.

I knew it.

this time,

a freezer on the second floor,

right in front of my room! :D

a surprise,

Mum got sick when I was having my finals.

yup, nobody told me.

I understand why.

she was admitted to the hospital for 4 days.

in recovery period now.

she can't eat solid food yet.

about yesterday's girls day & night out,

we watched 2012,

my rating at 7/10.

I expected something more.

then, we had buffet dinner at 2 plus 1,

steamboat plus grill.

after dinner, went for karaoke till 2am.

started packing only when we got back.

packed till 6am, woke up at 9am.

almost missed our 11am bus.

was just in time.

enjoyed each others company for a 4 hours journey.

reached airport 2 hours earlier,

had lunch, checked in.

bit goodbye.

okay, I need to hit the bed now.

3 hours sleep only this morning.

damn! I miss him already.

Thursday, November 19, 2009

my life

My life had been full of challenges.

I fell a lot and worked very hard to stand back up.

I didn't know it was so bad until someone told me this:

"you must had sinned so much in your past

life that you are facing all these."

Yea, it is that bad.

I faced moments where I was too weak to face the world,

but I am glad many gave me support.

The love I received guide me through everything.

And I love everyone for that.

If you did something wrong to me before,

hehe...nevermind, you are forgiven.

I don't keep grunges.

But I do hope you forgive me too. :D

Just so random :

"When all songs and moments remind me of him,

and when he forgotten every important thing he promised me,

it hurts to think whether he will still remember me when I'm gone."

Tuesday, November 17, 2009


I was so bored yesterday so besides doing the smokey eyes makeup,

I decided to do paper hair curls.

So here are the before and after picture.

Stop laughing cause it ain't funny wtf

I had to sleep with paper curls on my head and believe me,

it is NOT comfortable at all.

Well, I guess it's true that girls will

go through the pain just to be beautiful.

For example, wearing high heels or

getting your scalp burnt by the straightening iron wtf

After I finished rolling and tying all the papers on my hair.

When I opened all the papers. So fluffy right?

Reminds me of my curly hair days.

I did curled my hair like this after form 5.

Last me less than a month though it cost me MYR100 something.

I can't stand the maintenance. So I straighten it back.

That was when I spoil my silky hair wtf

Just add a lil water, straighten the front part.

There you go, a less fluffy wavy hair.

I ran my fingers through so many times,

so no more curls, only waves wtf

The fun part is,

when you wash your hair it will be straightened back! :D

Me loveee experimenting.

never let go ♥

I still remember the day he first

said "hi" to me during Moral lesson.

He said we talked before, but I can never recall.

Sorry. Hehe :D

All the star gaze, walks,

until the day you dared yourself to hold my hand.

You said you were in love and I asked who was that girl.

My heart was pumping fast,

cause I was afraid that you won't say my name.

I love you but I didn't dare to let you know.

When you held my hand

and asked that heart stopping question,

yes, my heart skipped a few beats. :D

I was speechless,

couldn't even open my mouth to say "yes".

I just held your hand tighter,

and you knew what I meant.

You let me lean on your shoulder,

and we star gazed the whole night. :)

All those nicknames,

arguments and swearing,

to the Indonesian speaking us today.

Every moment counts.

Today is our one year anniversary.

He had his final paper today as well.

But he remembered our anniversary,

when I thought all he was thinking about was his studies.

He wished us exacted at 12 midnight.

I understand we couldn't afford a grand celebration

and we don't have the time to celebrate on the day itself.

So instead, we had supper at night.

And I told him this:

"the most special anniversary ever is when
it is not celebrated with materials,
no gifts, no trips, no treats...
but just me & you enjoying the presence of one another,
at the mamak stall. Hahah! thanks."

* * * * * * * * * *

Your presence, is my present,

is my gift for this special day.

My favourite picture.

It was so spontaneous. :D

~Cheers to many more years to come.

May God be with us always,

and may He bless our relationship. Amen~

Monday, November 16, 2009


Here is a smokey eyes tutorial did specially for dear Wan Linnie.

She said she is still having trouble doing smokey eyes.

Well, I am still learning so here I shall show the common smokey eyes.

With 3 tones, silver, grey and black.

You can find tutorials on smokey eyes with other tones,

such as blue, purple and green.

You can use any monochromatic make ups you have.

I am using the cheap ones cause I don't use make up often,

so I guess there is no point buying expensive ones wtf

But the decision is up to you. :)

* * * * * * * * *

Okay, enough of the introduction.

Now, the first step is always to clean your face and exfoliate it.

Make your skin clean before applying make ups.

If your skin is very dry and peeling at certain areas,

like mine, apply lotion on the affected area.

1. As you can see,

I am having dark circles due to sleep deprive.

Just finished my exams and at last,

I got my sleeping hours back. :)

2. So the motif of my concealer here

mainly is to decrease my eye bag

because I don't have any acne (for now) or scars on my face.

Use a two-way sponge to dab the concealer and blend it.

3. After applying concealer,

apply a thin layer of foundation.

Remember the neck line as well.

4. Start with the lightest colour

(among the 3 tones -silver).

Apply at the centre of the eyelids and

at your brow line as indicated by the arrows.

Be careful not to reach the edges.

5. Next, apply the intermediate tone (here being grey)

near your tear ducts, as indicated with number 1.

Apply the darkest tone (being black) at the outer side,

as indicated with number 2.

Softly blend them together but avoiding smooching the colour.

6. Apply eyeliner at the bottom lid.

As for me, I prefer pencil eyeliner for bottom lids.

7. Apply a lil of (darkest tone) black eyeshadow

on the outer side of the lower lid.

Connect it with the upper eyeshadow

to create more shape to the eyes.

8. Apply white eyeshadow on the lower

lids near your tear duct as indicated.

9. Reapply the lightest tone (silver) on the

brow bone to enhance the shape of the eyes.

10. Blend it together with the eyeshadow at the eyelids.

11. Apply liquid eyeliner at the upper lids.

You can extend it at the end for sexier look.

(I use pencil for lower and liquid for upper :D )

12. Curl your eye lashes.

13. Apply mascara.

14. Dab on some black eyeshadow and

apply on your eyebrows.

I prefer using eyeshadow than eyebrow liner

because it can be drawn easier.

15. Apply any of your favourite lipstick or lip gloss.

I am using my favourite Nivea lipcare gloss & shine.

16. Apply a thin layer of blusher

to avoid looking like a clown. :D

17. Apply eyeshadow with tone slightly darker

than your skin on both sides of your nose.

This will create a sharp nose illusion.

(There are make up pencil specially for

this but I found an easier way, again :D )

18. The same illusion method

this time for sharper chin/jaw line.

Apply the eyeshadow slightly

below your cheekbones and going down your chin.

* * * * * * * * * *

Walla! Here are 2 images (more to camwhore wtf)

of me after the make up.

Did it just for this tutorial.

Rubbed it off right after I snapped these pictures. :)

See the big difference from the first picture?? Hehe.. :)

I admit make up did a lot of work on me.

But I still like natural look. Babe likes natural too.

Though he does admit like looking at pretty girls.

Which guys don't, right? XD

Lots of smiles & loves

It time to do Blog shopping and Blog hopping!!

I am super exited my exam ended.

And our anniversary is tomorrow!! :D

He will be sitting for his last paper tomorrow.

All the best Babe!

I had been sleeping for 12 hours.

Dreamt about a high school crush.

Nothing love-based or dirty wtf

He turned out to be a great friend in my dream.

We still contact each other time to time though.

My head still feels kinda heavy,

but thank God I have all my time to rest. :)

Had been watching Youtube videos on the Carefree Queen competition,

and still deciding whether I should take dance lessons during holidays.

Any ideas or suggestions?

Decided to change my study method,

to avoid making myself sick every exam season wtf

Decided to quote play unquote make ups as well.

Will Babe be generous enough to bring me out after his exam?

Will you Babe? :D *hint hint*

Love him superb much, he had guide me through.

And made me a lil more insane during the exam season.

Okay, mengantuk d...

Sunday, November 15, 2009

The end, for now.

After all struggles and sufferings,
I managed to finished my finals.
End of exams, at least for now.
And I thank God for guiding me through.
Also to my parents and my friends.
I had been really weak.
Going almost out of my mind.
I even told my parents I did badly,
just to get them prepared for the worst.
For a week my head was spinning like ferris wheel.
I was like a walking corpse aka zombie.
During exams my whole body turned feverish,
I survived till the last,
and still in recovery.
I have double vision at times.
I head still feels like the vessels waiting to explode.
I am still having tinnitus (ringing in the ear),
due to over stress.
Pardon me if I ask you to repeat your words,
cause I may lost my hearing for few seconds,
from time to time.
I need to dance.
Movies won't help, neither will games or shopping.
Somebody, make me do Cha-cha or Samba?

Saturday, November 14, 2009


Epic fail, I can't wait till Sunday to blog.

Cause I need to say this out :


I am feeling too tired to move on.

I want to go home!!!

Wednesday, November 11, 2009

from me to u

Dear readers,

I am so sorry the make this late announcement.
As I mentioned in my previous post,
I was thinking to stop blogging.
But as you read the comments,
I only decided to take a short break from blogging.
Thus, I did not stop by my blog since my last comment.
My final exam starts tomorrow.
Wish me & all my battle mates the best of luck.
Will be back blogging after 12noon this coming Sunday! :)

Friday, November 6, 2009

My limit

Should I stop blogging?
I suddenly feel that I am not significant to anyone.
That my existence was never felt,
nor will my future disappearance.
My efforts were never known.
I had been patient for so long,
perhaps it is time for revenge.
What is the use being so nice in today's world?
You will never be appreciated.
I learned my lesson, so it is payback time.

For those who were never punctual,
never expect me to be punctual anymore.
Since long long time ago I was taught by my Dad,
to be at least 15 minutes earlier.
Now even if I am late 1 minute,
you will be late for 30 minutes.
Damn you!!
And when the meeting haven't finish,
and I need to leave for another,
you will stare at me.
It's not my fault that the meeting don't end on time,
as if I have all my time for you.

And, for those who think they can push everything to me,
just because they are slightly busier than me.
Wtf is wrong with you, do your part and do it on time!!
what's all with the delay and making things so difficult.
To those who are unable to accept others ideas,
but never give ideas and can't stop being sarcastic,
don't make a fool out of yourselves.

For some reason,
I got so angry till I cried.
I always cry when I am really really angry.
Why on Earth are people so selfish and inconsiderate.
Now they all give me no reason to be considerate,
no reason to be punctual, no reason to be forgiving.
Now I feel that wouldn't it be great for me to treat them the same?
This is not the first time I felt this way.
Only this time I blogged it out to let you think.
You stupid idiots!!
Well, if you read my blog.

I was right.
When people say threat others good
and others will treat you the same.
Be good so that the luck and wealth or
whatever good shits will be with you.
But it is no longer the same in the world today.
Only the foolish try to be good,
and get bullied and tortured.
Today, you must be bad to have the good shits with you.
It doesn't matter what God think.
Just like how corruption is.
You got everything you want, that's it.
Nobody cares the dirty tricks you did.

I'm tired of this place, this world.
I wish to sleep and never get up to face it anymore.
Though there are still so much joys and smiles around,
they are not enough to cover all the sadness and tears.
Why is a smile worth a thousand meaning,
and a tear, worthless?

Here I am eating a bowl of empty noodles,
feeling so sick of everything.
Without anyone who bother whether I exist.
Life goes on even without me.
Is this how people who suicide think?
I think I better shut up from now.
Make a change back to my old self.
Where I got scolded for being too quiet.
I love being quiet, never bothered I was scolded.
It was the world which makes me voice out,
when I got tired of how people ain't making things better.
But now I no longer care what the world is doing.
People are so selfish they never consider what others say.
You do yours, I do mine.
I'm tired. I've reach my limit.

Tuesday, November 3, 2009

Smile :D

The miracles of God.

When I lost hope in everything,
He show me miracles.