Friday, October 9, 2009

Flying without wings

Just finished my last test for the week. Feeling really tired but alas, relieved. This weekend, Talent Search 2009 Auditions. I have to be on duty both days. And also the completion of Moral Project and Academic Writing research paper.

Many things happened recently, I just feel like giving all the girls a big hug. I do not know how to show that I care for both sides, that both sides have their rights and wrongs. I often feel sad when things are not like before. It has only been a year, we had so much yet so little. There are still something missing. Some forgive and forget, some unforgiving and keep grunges. Some need a long time to figure whether things can go right.

Nevertheless, I am not siding anyone and I just wish for the best for both parties. I also wish that if any of you have anything to say to me, just tell me directly. Being hypocrite and well, gossiping is I believed, a girls nature but should be done in minimum level. Still, I wish my dears all the best and may time heal the wounds even if it may take ages, at least give the other a chance or two, or maybe more.

"If you want people to like you, forgive them when they wrong you.
Remembering wrongs can break a friendship."
(Proverbs 17:9)

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We may not be the saint to forgive a million times when others sinned a thousand times, but he once told me when we quarreled, words which hurt me so much at that moment that it practically change our relationship's situation.

I was the demanding, fussy and easily-pissed-off girlfriend before this, I am still but less. XD There was this one day he got really fed up of me and totally ignored me.

In a message he wrote :
"I've always believe in 2nd chance or maybe 3rd. But when it comes to 7th, 8th or more, people begin to wonder. Maybe we should try other paths. Maybe things will be much better on that road. I need to be away from you to think. So I'm asking you to do so. Love, Jeremy."

After that, I was hurt so much but I decided to do what he told me. I left him alone, no calls, no text messages, no emails, no meet ups.

Until the day that he sent me a message :
"Sorry baby cause I caused you lots of trouble. I was really furious but I soon realized I miss your daily smses. Guess we're tied together."

It was until that moment, he missed me being demanding, he missed the always-pissed-off me, he missed me being fussy. It was time which change things. Just like how trends and fashions changed from time to time.

Here, I just want all my readers to know that it was "time" which caused the pain and sufferings, but it will also take "time" to heal all those.

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Taken from last part of "Flying Without Wings" by Westlife,
"And you're the place my life begins, and you'll be where it ends"


Isabel Goh said...

mei linnie.... very thoughtful post. really make me think, u know. this year kinda tough for most of us. alot of misunderstanding... ppl got hurt, forgave but still there are something caught in between for some of us. and time is all we need. no matter how long it takes, time will heal all wounds. we are so far away from home. away from all comforts and family love. and i think friends are what we all need now. thank u mei linnie... for everything. ur a friend i wont want to loose. muaks dear!!! :) XOXO...

MayLin :: Melinda said...

Love all of you.. Won't wanna lose any of you.. We are all far from home and we need to stay together.
You remember right.."bersatu teguh, bercerai roboh"...Hopefully others have the same thought..xoxo

Mighty Jacksparrow said...

beautifully written. i personally admire the ending.

MayLin :: Melinda said...

Thanks.. :)
I admire all of yours though..
I mean your posts...

JeremyMelvin said...

OI! Why is my messages being the scapegoat?? Ciss luuk.. Abis gue malu LOL

MayLin :: Melinda said...

Jgn malu2...msgs itu boleh jd inspirasi kpd org lain.. hehe.. besides, those are what changed us kan babe? :D